Having a rough night

LVBlvd

I pulled a muscle yesterday picking Paige up to change her diaper.  It started as pretty mild pain, but turned awful last night and couldn't sleep at all.  

 Today, I took her to MDO and picked her up, but had to call my mom to come take her for the night because I could barely stand.  I am about to take a muscle relaxer (one that is safe during pregnancy!) and just sleep.

I am really getting sad about how limited I am in this pregnancy.  I miss chasing my daughter around.  I miss being able to go to the park or pool on a whim.  Now, I have to call and find a helper, then sit on the bench and watch them play : (  It breaks my heart.  

I am so thankful to be pregnant and DH and I are thrilled that Paige will be getting 2 little brothers. And I know we are getting close.  I mean, how blessed are we??  This is just so, so hard.

I am so sad right now.  I miss my little girl.  I wish I could have taken care of her tonight (DH is in class until 10, so it really wasn't an option).

Thanks for listening and sorry this was so long. 

LIAngel

((((HUGS))))   I am sorry.

Christakim

Awww hun, I'm so sorry to hear you pulled something.  I know you miss her, but this is to make Mama better!

I keep telling myself this because right now, I'm lacking energy (and am always sick)- Paige understands.  Paige will understand.  Paige loves spending time with her grandma.  She'll be THRILLED to see you tomorrow when you pick her up and you'll be a better mommy for taking this time to yourself to heal.

Ella spent quite a bit of the summer with my mom (who is a teacher and doesn't work during the summer) and I felt guilty through it all.  But I know it was for the best.  She gets all kinds of interaction and goes to the playground, goes swimming, etc, stuff that I've been way too exhausted and sick to do.

This is only temporary and our toddlers will be FINE:)  ((HUGS)), feel better, I hope you get some sleep.

InACitySoNice

That's so sad and painful and awful!  I hope your back heals soon.  There's nothing worse than back pain and spasms.  Feel better soon! 

howleyshell

If it helps any at all she will NOT remember any of this.

I know that you notice a difference but as long as you try your hardest to smile even when you're telling her you can't lift her, etc she's gonna come thru this just fine.

After a while my avoiding lifting Dylan became normal to him and he just went to Dad instead.  It broke my heart and I thought that he would forever go to Dad for such things but as soon as I was able to lift him, get in the floor with him, etc it was like no time had passed since I'd done it last.  

Guilt is useless (but totally normal).

I promise this is all worth it and then some!

 

 

kme930

So sorry - it's so difficult to struggle with pregnancy when you feel so blessed to be pregnant, but we all understand. And you are carrying two, so you get even more of a pass! Take care of yourself - soon enough you'll have those beautiful boys to share with Paige.

I hope you feel better soon and get some good quality sleep!

laura&dan05

I hope the muscle relaxer works and you get some relief.  Even if your time with Paige right now is spent in bed snuggling, reading books, watching tv, and playing she won't care and you'll be getting the rest you need.

mel72

Hope it gets better for you soon : )

firsttogo

Hey there! I am so sorry. This is frustrating. Paige will not however remember you not interacting with her as much as you want. She will love having little brothers. This is a stressful time, and you are getting to the end! Hang in there lady!

JillRock96

I'm so sorry -- I've been exactly there, and it sucks.  The only thing I can say is that very soon you'll be back to tossing her up in the air, AND you'll have two beautiful little boys as well. 

Tryingtogetpregnant

I am so sorry! You have every right to be sad. You are getting so close though!

 

lrrb

Im so sorry.  I can't imagine how hard that is.  I would a wreck if I physically couldn't take care of my girls.  Hang in there, its ALL worth it when you bring those two sweet little boys home. 

kimarino13

I totally understand how upset you are.  I am so sorry.  It sucks. 

Mrs.Kiltlifter

You and I are really close in our pregnancies.  I cannot imagine doing this with another child.  It would be even more exhausting and physically painful if I had to take care of a child all day. 

Take care of yourself and rest.  I know it is not what you want to be doing right now.  (((((HUGS)))))  I am sure your daughter thinks you are the best mommy in the world!!!

LVBlvd

Thank you girls so much!! I am feeling better (after 4 popsicles!!) and know that everything is going to be fine.

DavezWife

hugs lady. I hope you feel better soon!

igh0318

((hugs)) 

I hope your back feels better soon.    

marcuej

Ugh...you poor thing!  I absolutely know how you are feeling and it's terrible.  I can't imagine what it must feel like carrying around 2 babies. 

Be so careful with your back.  I've had horrible back problems for a couple months now and it's so awful.  It's practically impossible to give it the rest it needs while chasing around a little one, but you did the right thing having Paige go to your mom's.  You've still got some cookin' to do!! 

Anyway, just know you are not alone in this.  It sucks so badly and I know how hard it is to balance a LO while trying to take care of the ones cookin'!  

somethingchangd

I can only imagine how hard that is for you.  I'm sure you want to cherish these last days of Paige as an only child and it's got to be so difficult to not be able to do as much as you'd like.  But she is fine - she's not upset with you and probably enjoys spending time with grandma.  So try not to worry about her.  Big hugs to you.

sommerrayne

Can I just say - you should not feel guilty at all. I know that's so much easier said than done but I know how it feels to be laid up. This is such a finite moment in time, she'll never remember it (which is sad in its own respect, no!? LOL).

Take the help and try to get better mama!