Struggling

sdkd2121

Well I'm brand new to this, but am already getting relief knowing that I'm not the only one who is having trouble or has feelings of complete and utter frustration.

We just hit our year mark of TTC and since today turned out to be yet another disappointing CD 1, I made an appointment with a fertility Dr.  I can honestly say I never thought it would get to this point.  Sure I thought it might take a couple of months, but here we still are.  Thankfully I have a great husband who tries his best to keep me positive month after month, but after a while how do you keep your chin up?  I've tried forgetting about it, I've tried praying like crazy, I've tried talking it out, I've cried, I've screamed...but each month starts the same depressing cycle.  TTC is supposed to be one of the most fun times in a marriage and when you have trouble, it's the opposite.

It seems like all of my friends either have kids or are pregnant and it's hard to talk about your frustrations and concerns to people who have never had any to worry about.  One of my close girlfriends and I got off the BCP at roughly the same time last year and she now has a beautiful daughter who I get to see all the time.  I am so happy for her and love the baby to death, but also can't help but wonder why it always seems to be someone else.  When will it ever be our turn?

 

dicer2

Just know that you are not alone!  I have found this and the infertility board to be great resources when you want to connect with others going through the same things.

I try to take things one day at a time, focus on other areas of my life, read to 'escape' for a while, take yoga to de-stress.  It's okay to have bad days where you just want to cry.  We all go through it!  Hang in there, hopefully you can get some answers soon.

STL34

Welcome to the board.  I hope your doctor can help you come up with a plan. 

I understand your frustration. 

mharison

Welcome! You are not alone in your feelings, and please know that it's completely normal. We've all felt that way at one time or another.

imoverit

Sorry you have to be on this board.  The girls on her are wonderful and supportive so I hope you will be able to get what you need from it.

rachviking

I just wanted to say you are among folks that know exactly what you are feeling, for a change.  I am just like you - a year ago we were starting our TTC journey, and in a few weeks, we'll be doing our first IVF.  It's so hard to be here- just treat yourself right, make sure you take time to appreciate yourself and your DH, and stop comparing your life to others you know.  I really hope you get some answers soon, and your path to baby is short from here on out!