Had a meltdown last night (s/o 2U2)

MommaMcG

Last night was not good for me.  At all.  I've been an emotional wreck lately!  Anyway, it started with my husband saying I could do whatever I wanted to last night...like, baby making wise.  I kinda freaked out!  haha.  The timing would have been good, which is also why I freaked.  While I really, really want another baby, I keep thinking that I'd be cheating Claire out of a good mom or something.  Does that make sense?  I just want to eat her up by herself for as long as possible, but I don't want to wait too long.  *sigh*  So, we didn't do anything.  Maybe next month.

Then we decided to give Claire some formula before bed because my supply is tanking.  I was such a mess about that!  I feel horrible, even though I know she'll be fine and I've made it a long way nursing.  

Then I started thinking about how I have to go back to school soon and I don't want to.  At all.    It's been such a great summer at home with her. 

Ugh, so many emotions!!

I really wanted to post all this last night, but it was 11:30 and I figured no one would be on to cheer me up, lol.  I'm feeling a bit better today, but still kind of freaking out. 

sarahann1941

All of those emotions are totally valid.  I have at least 1 freak out a day about how I'm sad that my time with just Evie is so close to coming to and end.  I am super excited about baby #2 but sometimes I feel sad, because she really has no clue what is going on.

You will know when you are ready.  Dont feel bad about having those emotions, totally Valid.

Cheer Up Butter Cup!  Today is a beautiful day with your beautiful little girl.

 

lemen99

((hugs))

Sometimes it's hard to know what the right thing to do is.  I hope you figure out what's best for your family! 

I'm sorry work is coming up so fast.

Val&B0604

(((hugs))) 

 

uofibabe

I feel for you.......I cried for days when I had to go back to work but once you get into a routine it will be fine.   I still have days where all I think about is Clark but it just makes my time with him that more special.

As far as baby #2 you will really want to make the decision together not just have a spur of the moment type of baby ...if that makes sense?!?!  I wouldnt want the burden of "well...you are the one that wanted a 2nd baby!"  Just something to think about. 

I would be proud to have made as far as you have with breastfeeding - I was happy to have made it a month.   Claire will do well no matter what you feed her...you are a great mom

manda429

(((HUGS)))

I'm not doing too much better today either