Pregnant after IF

So happy to be joining you gals...

I hope some of you remember me from the IF board.  I've been lurking for here for the last few days and see a lot of familiar nesties :)  Here's a short intro:  my DH and I have been TTC #1 since September 2005.  We tried on our own for a year, which resulted in 3 heartbreaking losses.  We started a RE in January 2007.  A lap in December 2008 revealed endo.  By July 2009, I experienced 4 more devastating losses; clomid, injectables, blood thinners and tons of testing couldn't make my body carry a pregnancy to term.  After back-to-back losses last year, my DH and I took a break for the rest of the year to recuperate and save for IVF w/ PGD.  We decided to one IVF only because we didn't think we could go on for much longer.  As you know, living in the trenches of infertility is hell on earth and we were nearing our breaking point.

In March 2010, we cycled for IVF and started to feel excited, even hopeful.  We were devastated when the cycle ended in a BFN.  At our WTF appointment, my RE said our issues are two-fold, (1) I have poor egg quality and, (2) my body's ability to detect abnormalities is compromised (which is why my body allows pregnancies to happen with bad eggs) so, each time I get pregnant, it ends in loss.  This was his best educated guess as to why I keep having recurrent losses.  His suggestion was DE.  Emotionally exhausted, physically drained and hanging onto a few shreds of sanity, my DH and I made the choice to stop TTC and live childfree.  I couldn't even hang out on the boards anymore - I was just too emotionally spent.

When AF was late the cycle right after our disastrous IVF cycle, I tested and honestly, that had to be the longest 3 minutes of my life.  You would think I would have been over the moon to see a BFP but all I could see was another loss waiting to happen.  To say I have been living with my stomach in knots since seeing that BFP is an understatement.  I've never been able to get past 9 weeks and at every u/s, I was terrified.  9 weeks went by, then 10 weeks, then 11 weeks and finally, 12 weeks - weekly u/s' showed my LO is growing nicely :)

Today, I'm 13 weeks and 2 days pg...I can't believe I'm saying that!!!  Although I've got m/s daily and I'm exhausted all the time, I'm amazed and thrilled at the tiny little life growing in my belly :)  Although I'm still scared of loss, I'm starting to feel more confident...maybe I finally pushed out a good egg?  Here's hoping I did!

I'm so happy to be able to post on this board.  I feel like I've been finally let into an elite club!  If you made it this far, thanks so much for listening.  I'm looking forward to reconnecting with all of you :)

TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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  • WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!  OMG 13 weeks, 2 days! CONGRATULATIONS! :crying tears of joy over here:

    I can't even describe how over the moon happy I am to see you here.  The feeling of finally pushing out a good egg is exactly how I look at my pregnancy also.  I am always checking your blog for updates...I am hoping there will be some pics soon!  

    I am emailing you!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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  • smileesmilee member

    OOOOOMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Congratulations, sweetie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  How wonderful that things are going well!!!!  I know how scary it is, but you have made it so far!!!!!

    I am so, so very happy for you!!!  i can't wait to follow your pregnancy.

    Aw... I am tearing up..... 

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    WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!  OMG 13 weeks, 2 days! CONGRATULATIONS! :crying tears of joy over here:

    I can't even describe how over the moon happy I am to see you here.  The feeling of finally pushing out a good egg is exactly how I look at my pregnancy also.  I am always checking your blog for updates...I am hoping there will be some pics soon!  

    I am emailing you!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

    Thanks so much Peachy :)  I will update my blog ASAP and will be looking for your email :)

    TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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    OOOOOMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Congratulations, sweetie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  How wonderful that things are going well!!!!  I know how scary it is, but you have made it so far!!!!!

    I am so, so very happy for you!!!  i can't wait to follow your pregnancy.

    Aw... I am tearing up..... 

    Oh Smilee, thanks so much!  And honey, congratulations to you; I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!

    TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • Congrats! Thats fantastic!
    DX: Unexplained IF/possible PCOS 5/5/2010 Surprise BFP! After 2 miscarriages and many prayers, our angel is here:) Photobucket Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While I am still on the IF board I lurk over here because I want to be a part of this board so badly. I am SOOOOO happy to hear about your pregnancy. I was so sad and upset for you when you decided to quit trying, so now you made my day!!!!

     

    congrats! 

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  • How wonderful to see you over here! I remember that you were getting ready for IVF, and then I didn't see any other updates... I can completely understand your apprehension. I am so happy you've made it through the 1st tri and that you and baby are doing well! Welcome and congratulations!!!
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  • I have been waiting for this update cutie - so glad you came out :)

    CONGRATS!!!

    I have tears running down my face, I am soooooooooooo happy for you.

    This is IT!!!!

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
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  • yay!  I am so excited for you to be over here!  Congrats! 
  • albjagalbjag member

    Hon- I'm soo excited for you!! Congratulations!!  

    :-) 

    Surprise BFP after 5 yrs of TTC
  • I'll be think and praying for your little family!
  • Congrats!!!
    SAIFW
    TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
    Clomid/Femara no "O"
    IVF #1 BFN
    FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
    FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
    IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
    IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
    FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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  • That is amazing news!  Congrats to you :-).  Your story literally brought tears to my eyes.
    TTC since 8/2004
    Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
    DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
    DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
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  • O....M....G...!!!  OMG!!!  I totally remember you when you were getting ready for your IVF cycle!  OMG!  congratulations!!!  So very very happy for you!!!
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  • JM1977JM1977 member
    Congratulations!!!
    TTC with DOR, low morphology, fertilization issues
    IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
    IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
    DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
    DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
    TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!

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  • Hooray!  So glad you're doing well so far along!

    We had a BFP after our IVF BFN (that unfortunately ended in cp), and I remember thinking what a mind f--k it all was. 

    Congrats!

  • smeyersmeyer member
    Marisa!!! OMG!!!!  Oh, honey, I'm SO SO thrilled for you!  Congratulations!  :)

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  • Hooray!  I am so happy for you!

    After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
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  • Your story made me cry - I am so happy you are here!!! It looks like we'll be due one day apart - here's to the next 27 weeks!!! :)
    DS (7 years old) from FET in 2010
    DD (5 years old) from IUI in 2012
    TTC 3rd and final!: IUI #1 in progress!
  • I remember you from when you were preparing for your IVF cycle!  A big giant Congratulations to you!!!

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  • OMG this is amazing news!!! Congrats and welcome!!!!!!
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    Married 8.13.2005, M/C 12/8/06- 5 weeks, M/C 2/27/07- 7 weeks, M/C w/ D&C 8/10/09-6.5 weeks *Charles Lawrence born 5/2/08 @ 3:14am, 7lb 8oz, 20.5 inches. Clomid, Crinone and baby aspirin. *Alexandra Claire born 9/14/10 @ 9:52am 6lb 14oz, 20.5 inches. Femara, Crinone and baby aspirin. Lilypie Fourth Birthday tickers
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  • kme930kme930 member

    Thanks for posting your history. I am beyond thrilled for you! What a great story!!

    I wish you nothing but the best for this pregnancy - a happy and healthy 40 weeks. Good luck!

  • Hi Marissa, I don't know you but worms posted this on the IF board.  I am so excited for you and got teary-eyed reading your story.  Congratulations!!!!  I hope the next 27 weeks go by quickly. 
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  • OMG! This is the best news ever!!! I'm so happy for you sweetie!! :-D
    TTC# 1 Since 10/2005----Diagnosed with PCOS March of 2006
    multiple failed cycles, multiple IUIs, lap with ovarian drilling 4/2008
    Finally BFP on 11/23/09 beta#1=36 beta#2 =62 beta#3=139
    Liliana was born on March 27,2010 at 21w5d due to infection and pre-term labor
    BFP #2 on 6/20/10 after Gonal-F and TI First u/s showed Twins! 
    TTC#2 since 02/2012 with out RE... 
    Back to RE 08/2016----- Cycle #1 10/2016 Femara 7.5mg=???
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  • Love this story....huge congratulations!  I totally remember you, but didn't know your entire back story.  I'm thrilled for you!
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  • poomanpooman member
    WoW!!! I'm so happy for you.  What an amazing story.  Congrats to your whole (growing!) family.
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  • OMG!!! I am so beyond excited to see you over here!!!!!!!!! So extremely happy for you sweetie. Congrats :)
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  • Welcome and congrats!!  
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  • This post is simply the MOST BEAUTIFUL thing I've read in a LONG LONG LONG time.

    So incredibly happy for you!  :)  CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    3 IUI's, 2 IVF's , 1 FET , 1 IVF w/ Gestational Carrier, and 1 FET using adopted embryo's = ALL BFNs
    We are adopting!

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  • I am so happy for you.  Congratulations and best of luck.
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  • OMG!! Congratulations! I am so unbelievably happy for you; this post made me tear up. Congratulations again!
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  • Huge and sincere congratulations! 

    And yes, it DOES feel like being admitted to an "elite club" to me too.   That just means we get to enjoy being pregnant on a level that the fertiles never can!

     
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  • Hey M!  Now you have me crying again. If I haven't already told you enough...I am so thrilled for you!!! I'm so glad to see you back here and I know that you will get all the support you need.

    Sorry you're still not feeling well.  Hopefully it'll let up soon.

    Big Smile  Love the ticker!!!

     

     

      

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  • WooHoo Lady, I am so very happy for you!! 13 weeks and 3 days is just so far along, I get why you haven't said anything up until now but I wish we'd be able to support you up until now. Welcome.welcome.Welcome. And I hope you have a very healthy and uneventful pregnancy.
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  • Awe that is awesome news!!!!!!  Congratulations :)
    dx'd with severe endo and poor egg quality 3 IUIs were all BFN IVF #1 = c/p IVF #2 = BFN IVF #3 = beautiful baby girl born 2/2011; 8/2011 Surprise BFP - natural m/c at 8w; TTC #2 2011-2012; 2 IUIs = BFN; IVF #1 = BFP 9dp5dt beta = 328; 11dp5dt = 650; 13dp5dt = 1114; 18dp5dt = 4747 BabyFetus Ticker
  • I am so, so, so, so happy for you!!!!  HUGE congratulations!!!
    TTC with unexplained IF since 8/2007 6 losses, one beautiful perfect boy in our arms Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • Woohooo!!!!

    Of course I remember you from IF! I am thrilled for you! Congratulations!

    Wow - 13 weeks :) That's awesome!

    Welcome to the board! 

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    Unexplained Infertility

    After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!

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    TTC #2
    After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!

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    Surprise! Baby #4 is due in March!
  • Congratulations!  What a story, I am very happy for you!
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