Preventing a mental breakdown?

StarryNight39

I'm literally :::this close::: Between my sister, my life, etc, I have lost all control. Dave and I hardly talk, I am having panic attacks (over the stupidest things) every single night, I am miserable. My meds aren't working (although they were adjusted again today and they added another one)

I don't wan to have to rely on meds to be able to get out of my bed. My kids deserve better than me. My husband deserves better.

Sorry I just don't know what to do anymore. Everyone is so caught up in my sister that I am just kind of alone here. I'm sure my friends are sick of me complaining about how depressed I always am.

 

Kapalua

I think you definitely some time away.  Your upcoming weekend will help hopefully?  I wish I knew the perfect thing to tell you...but I'm here whenever you need me.  Whenever you need a break...drop the herd with me and go have some me time. 

SumnerBride

I've suffered from depression almost my entire life.  I've found what helps me the most is diet, plenty of exercise, alone time, and vitamins.

goodheartedmommy

Can you send me a FB message?

belle204

I so hear you. I *just* called to find a psychiatrist so I can get new meds b/c otherwise I will be checking myself into the psych ward. So close to snapping. I don't even bother to talk to anyone anymore really (except one person) b/c I also think they get tired of hearing it. I wish I had some words of encouragement but all I can say is (((hugs))). Email me if you ever need to.

Lisa102304

You need time away AND find someone to talk to (a professional).

There is NOTHING wrong with needing medication - even if it is for the rest of your life. I am sorry things are so bad right now. ((hugs))

gibs

I know a lot of people here think you're awesome so I'll probably get jumped all over, but maybe you should have slowed down on the reproduction rate to not keep adding babies to your unhappy/complicated/stressful life?  Oh well.  Too late now.  GL

SumnerBride

gibs:

I know a lot of people here think you're awesome so I'll probably get jumped all over, but maybe you should have slowed down on the reproduction rate to not keep adding babies to your unhappy/complicated/stressful life?  Oh well.  Too late now.  GL

I don't think she's awesome, but I still think that's a shiity thing to say to someone going through some shiit.

cooker71

Sorry you're feeling this way...I hope your new meds do the trick. I'm switching antidepressants right now because the ones I've been taking for like a year haven't really been doing anything.

And I finally admitted that last week.

I second the alone time. If you're doing a girls weekend or something like that this weekend, good for you. I'm always amazed what time with friends can do for your spirit, and exercise is always good for improving my mood. 

gibs

SumnerBride:

gibs:

I know a lot of people here think you're awesome so I'll probably get jumped all over, but maybe you should have slowed down on the reproduction rate to not keep adding babies to your unhappy/complicated/stressful life?  Oh well.  Too late now.  GL

I don't think she's awesome, but I still think that's a shiity thing to say to someone going through some shiit.

 

Newsflash. you don't agree with me. 

Temp108743750006959

I just wanted to say...something. I'm not sure what to say. Just please hang in there. I have no doubt in my mind -- and I don't even know you -- that you are # 1 in your kids' world. You've got a lot going on with your sister, things are at a peak -- but the peak will subside and give you a little room to address your mental health, address your marriage. And if you feel like you are truly going down a bad road, then be honest with your doctor.

cooker71

vccake:

I just wanted to say...something. I'm not sure what to say. Just please hang in there. I have no doubt in my mind -- and I don't even know you -- that you are # 1 in your kids' world. You've got a lot going on with your sister, things are at a peak -- but the peak will subside and give you a little room to address your mental health, address your marriage. And if you feel like you are truly going down a bad road, then be honest with your doctor.

And yeah. This too. Just take things day by day, even hour by hour, when they are at their worst. 

femmegem

Lea, I'm so sorry. I can relate to much of what you're feeling, and it sucks to be in that spot. (((hugs)))

Lisa102304

vccake:

I just wanted to say...something. I'm not sure what to say. Just please hang in there. I have no doubt in my mind -- and I don't even know you -- that you are # 1 in your kids' world. You've got a lot going on with your sister, things are at a peak -- but the peak will subside and give you a little room to address your mental health, address your marriage. And if you feel like you are truly going down a bad road, then be honest with your doctor.

 

This was really well said. 

Mrs.Tony

I'm so sorry : (

Going to send you a fb msg shortly.

*Amy*

Lisa102304:

vccake:

I just wanted to say...something. I'm not sure what to say. Just please hang in there. I have no doubt in my mind -- and I don't even know you -- that you are # 1 in your kids' world. You've got a lot going on with your sister, things are at a peak -- but the peak will subside and give you a little room to address your mental health, address your marriage. And if you feel like you are truly going down a bad road, then be honest with your doctor.

 

This was really well said. 

 

Ditto.  I hope things look up really soon.

Glendi2.0

This might seem weird, and please don't take it the wrong way, but I've noticed that you (at least I think it's you- I can never keep people straight here) like to post links to horrifying/tragic/insane posts or news stories... it's almost like you're in such a state of chaos that you seek others in chaos so you don't feel so alone, maybe?? Perhaps you could make a conscious effort to try and stay away from stuff that's really emotionally loaded (other people's stuff, anyway- sounds like you have enough of your own!) b/c I can't imagine that's helping your state of mind much.

Again, I hope that didn't come off snarky/mean/whatever (though I fear it might've...) Ditto others' suggestions of alone time, friends, meds, therapy, etc., but I also believe it's important to recognize the things you might be doing yourself that could be contributing to your "funk".

Good luck. Hope you get past this stage soon...

SumnerBride

Gibs-I do agree with you mostly.  you say a lot that others won't.  but this time, i'm not agreeing.  you're just being a shiit.

That said, you do thrive on drama.  So, take a step back.

summerbrideDC

((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry, Lea.  I don't have any advice beyond the good advice that's already been given (I definitely second the advice to get someone to talk to & have your meds reajusted--don't worry about being on them forever; think about how they can help you now & worry about "forever" another time), but I hope that you find a balance for yourself & your family & can find a sense of peace.   

JOEBunny

Hope they get it worked out soon.  The hardest year of my life was the 1st year with my son and I wasn't depressed or anxious.  Do what you need to do.  Friends really do give you a pass.  Your DH will give you a pass.  Your sister is her own worst enemy and that is all I will say about her.  You are more important to your family and need to take care of you.  Easier said than done.  {Hugs}

Expecting0207

I am going through my own personal hell right now so you are not alone.  The best way I make it through is remembering I have to take care of my daughter's mom.  I don't value myself enough right now to take care of me for me, but I can take care of me FOR them.  Because they need a strong mommy and they need a mommy that can face the day and they deserve it.

 Hit me up on FB if you ever want to talk.