Why can't I just go to bed?

Soyager

DS (knock on wood) is pretty good at sleeping for a large chunk of the night, usually 7/8-2:30/3. My problem is that I don't go to bed at 7 or 8. Or 9 or 10. Or 11. Lately, it's been 11:30 or later, and then I get only three hours sleep max until he wakes up to nurse. He goes back to sleep, of course, but it's screwed me up. Now I'm on this crazy schedule of staying up late every night, sleeping in 2-3 hour chunks, and ending up exhausted.

I should probably just go to bed instead of typing about it, huh?

thejennigirl

Your body is trying to wind down.  and this is just as important as sleep.  Your mind is still adjusting to motherhood, and the invader in your life (odd thing to call your child, but it's true).  You're just trying to find your non-mommy nitch in your day  :-)

 

Soyager

thejennigirl:

Your body is trying to wind down.  and this is just as important as sleep.  Your mind is still adjusting to motherhood, and the invader in your life (odd thing to call your child, but it's true).  You're just trying to find your non-mommy nitch in your day  :-)

 

Thank you for that. That totally explains it, seriously!

I got some other insight today that made me feel better about this new adjustment. My hair stylist said, "I just remember that I couldn't wait to go back to work because it was the one place where I was completely confident in what I was doing. I didn't have to second-guess myself and I didn't have to think about it. I could just do what I knew how to do and there was no questioning every part of the day."

And now I know why I miss work terribly even though I'll hate going back in September. It's not that I'm not a confident mom, but it's LEARNING every day how to balance everything. And sometimes it's nice to be on auto-pilot, right?

Alibean

I am always this way.  DD and DS both STTN as of a month or so ago.  I, of course, insist on staying up until 11 or 12 so I'm still exhausted.  I have nobody to blame but myself.  ::sigh::

thejennigirl

auto-pilot is great.  Summer is hard for me, because 2 kids are out of school and here.  Making a mess.  In MY way.  Because Saxton & I have a schedule/routine, and they aren't part of it.  When they go back to school, I miss them, but I also have my house & sanity back.