So yesterday was my due date

LauraLovesJon

And as if my day wasn't awful enough, I received Elijah's death certificate in the mail. This last week has been so difficult, I know I need to get back into some sort of daily routine, but I hate to feel like I am moving on, I don't want to move on without Eli. I'm thinking that maybe I need to change things up a little, that way I don't feel like life is going back to the way it was before Eli, since it will never be the same. Jon and I are also unsure of whether or not we want to try for more children in the future. I know it is a little soon to think about that, but the reason why we started trying for another baby after Dylan is because we wanted our children to be close in age. I don't want to feel like like I'm replacing Eli in any way, nothing could replace him. I also am so scared that something like this will happen again, I don't know that I could handle another loss. My mind just can't seem to settle down, I'm constantly thinking about all of these things and I wish I knew what to do or how to handle all of this.

DRN8302

I'm so sorry...   Although I didn't have a late loss, so I'm not pretending in any way to know how you feel, after 5 losses, I'm so scared to try again and I'm not sure if I can handle another loss. I don't know what to do either...

 (((hugs)))

Sunflower730

I am sorry. I really am. I am dreading mine on July 5th.

magdalina.h

((hugs)) I hated when we got Aidan's death certificate.  I was "smart" and opened it when Chris wasn't home and I was a wreck. You will never move on without Eli. He is always with you and you can never replace him.

Jessicaanne_1@yahoo.com

I'm so sorry ((hugs)).

jerriesgirl

(((hugs)))

CashewsMommy

My due date is coming up soon also. Luckily I will not be working anymore, (i only have 2 days left!) and will be able to embrace that day.

Everything you are feeling is perfectly fine. You are handling things the way you need to handle them. Being scared for the future is being honest with yourself. I know 100% that we want to try again, but I know 100% that i'm going to be scared of losing again. I also know, that with the love and support we have gotten from losing Aurora, that there will be people here for us.

I hope over time you'll find the answers you need. (((hugs)))