Hiii....need to blab to those who may understand.
I had my first IUI on Wednesday, and am now in the 2 ww. I was super duper positive when I left the RE, but since then I am becoming more and more negative about all of this. I had one 30 mm follicle and my RE injected a post wash of 15 million. The numbers aren't great, but they aren't horrible by any means.
I know its obviously too early to feel anything, but I just have a hunch that this won't be it for me. Do any of you feel this way so early on-feeling negative before you actually get your BFN?? I'm just so down in the dumps.
I am not sure if its because I have been really busy and running around, and haven't had much time to relax. But I need to get out of this funk and start thinking positive! Thanks for letting me vent...BLAH!
Re: Mrs. Negative Pants
Early loss 10/08
Lap 1/09
IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
2 frosties but don't know what's next
FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
I totally understand where you are coming from. I am only 1dpiui right now and I just go back and forth. One minute I'm positive and the next I'm questioning it.
The 2ww is torturous! I wish it was a 2 hour wait haha!
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