Today sucks. I got a BFN (still holding onto hope that I just tested too early), got a call from my BFF telling me they got the test results back on her mom and that she definitely has non-small cell carcinoma (lung cancer) and her prognosis is 12 months (average) with no treatment or 15 months (average) with chemo/radiation. I'm hurting for her family right now. I lost my dad to lung cancer, and know what she is going through.
Then, I got into a fight with DH on the phone. My doctor wants me to start progesterone suppositories now that we know I ovulated. Money is tight this week (had some unexpected things come up that tapped us out), but DH gets paid tomorrow so I figured I could turn in my prescription today and pick it up tomorrow and then start the prescription. My doctor gave me a specific pharmacy to use, because he knows they do the suppositories in house, and he said they can be difficult to get at other pharmacies sometimes. Well, DH didn't want to go all the way out to this other pharmacy, so I had to call another one he wants me to try. They said I had to bring the prescription in, and if they have to order it it might be in tomorrow - unless it is backordered. So, I lost it on the phone with DH telling him this....that I'm scared it's going to be backordered now and I won't get it till next week and what if that's too late to start it?
Then...I got a text from another close friend who is pregnant - saying "It's a boy!"
*sigh*
Is today over yet?
Re: Crying mess...
I'm so sorry cutie, that's a lot to deal with all at once.
((HUGS))
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
Ugh, I'm so sorry there is so much on your plate today. It's just not fair.(((hugs)))
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
Thank you IVF for our little miracles!!
Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
FET #1 April 2011= BFN
FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138
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Oh man, that is a terrible day for sure, I'm so sorry
Those suppositories can definitely stay backordered for quite awhile...mine were backordered for over a month and a half and finally had to be switched to my insurance's mail-order pharmacy.
DD (5 years old) from IUI in 2012
TTC 3rd and final!: IUI #1 in progress!
Thanks, everyone...I appreciate all the well wishes.
I'm better now. DH came home and gave me a big hug and kiss and said he was sorry. That made me feel better.
I think I was upset about the pharmacy thing because my doctor recommended the one that is further away because he knows they make the suppositories in house, so they have them in like 2 hours. I don't drive (I think I've posted about that in the past), so I have to rely on DH to take me to the pharmacy...and he just didn't see the point in going to the one that is so far away. I see his point, but I'm already so freaked out by everything, I just didn't need that arguement tonight.
After my stepdaughter goes back to her mom's tonight, we will go to the other pharmacy and see if they can get it in the next day or so for me. If that doesn't work, I thnk we will go to the one further away.
Marrisa
SAIFW
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3