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Crying mess...

Today sucks. I got a BFN (still holding onto hope that I just tested too early), got a call from my BFF telling me they got the test results back on her mom and that she definitely has non-small cell carcinoma (lung cancer) and her prognosis is 12 months (average) with no treatment or 15 months (average) with chemo/radiation. I'm hurting for her family right now. I lost my dad to lung cancer, and know what she is going through. 

Then, I got into a fight with DH on the phone. My doctor wants me to start progesterone suppositories now that we know I ovulated. Money is tight this week (had some unexpected things come up that tapped us out), but DH gets paid tomorrow so I figured I could turn in my prescription today and pick it up tomorrow and then start the prescription. My doctor gave me a specific pharmacy to use, because he knows they do the suppositories in house, and he said they can be difficult to get at other pharmacies sometimes. Well, DH didn't want to go all the way out to this other pharmacy, so I had to call another one he wants me to try. They said I had to bring the prescription in, and if they have to order it it might be in tomorrow - unless it is backordered. So, I lost it on the phone with DH telling him this....that I'm scared it's going to be backordered now and I won't get it till next week and what if that's too late to start it?

Then...I got a text from another close friend who is pregnant - saying "It's a boy!"

*sigh*

Is today over yet? 

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  • I am so sorry that today isn't going well.
    TTC since August 2008 4 cycles Femara = BFN Dx PCOS February 2010, 1000 mg Metformin XR IUI #1: Dexamethasone + Femara + Ovidrel + Progesterone = BFN IUI #2: Dexamethasone + Femara + Ovidrel + Progesterone = BFP! Our son arrived January 17, 2011!
  • I'm so sorry, sweetie. Big (((hugs)))
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  • I'm so sorry cutie, that's a lot to deal with all at once.

    ((HUGS))

     

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    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
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    Ugh, I am sorry. Try to do something nice for yourself.?
    DS born 7.30.11
  • I am sorry you had so many things to deal with today- maybe if they are on backorder, you can just ask for the prescription back or tell them to find a place that has it now that you can go to. Tell them you need it by Saturday at the latest according to your RE (they won't really know anyway)
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  • I am so sorry you are having such a rough day. (((hugs)))
  • Ugh, I'm so sorry there is so much on your plate today. It's just not fair.(((hugs)))

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    TTC since August 2008
    IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
    IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
    Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
    "Let it go, this too shall pass."
  • I'm so sorry. Sending you big hugs and hoping things get a little better.
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  • I am sorry you had a crappy day. Hugs to you!
    TTC #1 Diagnosed with PCOS 11/09 April 2009-Went off BCP! ~HSG and SA all clear!! ~Metformin 1500mg December 2009-October 2010=5 IUI's with Femara/Clomid=all BFN Switched RE & break April 2011-Follistim, Ovidrel, & 6th IUI=BFN Sept 2011- IVF Daisypath Anniversary tickers
  • What a day... I'm sorry and I hope that tomorrow is a better one.  (((hugs)))
    TTC with unexplained IF since 8/2007 6 losses, one beautiful perfect boy in our arms Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • Ugh, so sorry to hear that, that is certainly a lot going on at once! 
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    What a horrible day :( I'm so sorry. ((hug))
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  • I'm so so sorry, honey. 
    image 30 y/o with PCOS HSG normal, SA essentially normal (slightly low morph but good # and motility) 50 mg Clomid...zip; 100 mg Clomid...nada; 150 mg Clomid...zilch 1/10 Injectable cycle with Gonal-F, Ovidrel, and TI.....Beta 2/22...BFN 2/10 Injectable cycle with Gonal-F and Follistim (long story), Ovidrel..BFN 4/10 Injectable cycle (see above). BFP but early m/c 5w5d. 5/10 Break cycle due to BFC (Big Fat Cyst)...darn it all 6/10 Injectable cycle +IUI...BFN 7/10 Injectable cycle + IUI.....BFP!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I am so sorry! What a rough day.
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  • I would just go to bed now if I were you. I'm so sorry. Days like that suck! ((hugs))
    TTC with severe MFI since 9/08 IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
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  • I'm sorry. BIG ((hugs))
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  • (((hugs))) I'm so sorry!
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  • What a day!!!  You should do something nice for yourself like take a nice long bubble bath.  
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Oh man, that is a terrible day for sure, I'm so sorry :(

    Those suppositories can definitely stay backordered for quite awhile...mine were backordered for over a month and a half and finally had to be switched to my insurance's mail-order pharmacy. :/

    DS (7 years old) from FET in 2010
    DD (5 years old) from IUI in 2012
    TTC 3rd and final!: IUI #1 in progress!
  • (((((hugs))))))
    After 5 years of TTC, 3 IUIs, 5 IVFs, 2 FETs, multiple losses and an adoption that wasn
  • Thanks, everyone...I appreciate all the well wishes.

    I'm better now. DH came home and gave me a big hug and kiss and said he was sorry. That made me feel better.

    I think I was upset about the pharmacy thing because my doctor recommended the one that is further away because he knows they make the suppositories in house, so they have them in like 2 hours. I don't drive (I think I've posted about that in the past), so I have to rely on DH to take me to the pharmacy...and he just didn't see the point in going to the one that is so far away. I see his point, but I'm already so freaked out by everything, I just didn't need that arguement tonight.

    After my stepdaughter goes back to her mom's tonight, we will go to the other pharmacy and see if they can get it in the next day or so for me. If that doesn't work, I thnk we will go to the one further away.

    Marrisa 

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  • I'm so sorry to hear about your bad day. Hoping that you just tested a little too early.
  • oh gosh honey, tough day!!  :::::::::hugs::::::::
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    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
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  • Oh, I'm so sorry this day hasn't been the best for you.  {{Big Hugs}} that tomorrow will be excellent!
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