What a difference a day makes.....I went in thinking that I needed to cycle at least one more time before even discussing DE. I thought that our RE would rec DE, but I just wasn't there yet. He said that he was willing to do one more cycle with us, but not because he thought that it would work, because he knew that emotionally we needed to give it one more try before moving on. We talked a lot about going to Denver (his rec. if we did one more cycle with my eggs). He really thought that our best chance with my eggs was/is going to CCRM.
Towards, what was to be the end of the appt. I asked how much DE would be. I didn't think that we would ever be able to afford it, turns out we may be able to swing it this year. DH, RE, "my nurse" (IVF coordinator that I have claimed as my own) and I talked about DE for quite a while and I am really leaning towards going for it. I keep going back to what I told DH....this could be a chance for siblings. The chances of me getting pregnant with my own eggs is extremely low, forget having snow embies. I feel like if we try DE we may not only have a MUCH better chance of getting pregnant, but could also possibly have embies to freeze (maybe not). I am getting more and more comfortable with the idea. I am pretty open to adoption, but DH isn't so much. Also, I really would like to know what's it's like to be pregnant. I feel like this is our solution. We still have a lot of soul searching to do, but I am actually feeling hopeful.
Sorry this is so long, thanks for reading if you have gotten this far. What a day!!!
Re: Had my WTF appt. today
My RE was specifically rec. a protocol that a RE does there that involves growth hormone. My RE has sent a few patients there to follow that protocol. I just don't think that, even at the best clinic for DOR in the country our odds of getting pregnant with my eggs is good enough to try it. I am afraid that we will run out of money and won't ever have enough to even try DE if we had to/wanted to.
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
Sounds like a you got some great information, and it's wonderful that you're starting to feel hopeful. I have been through the process of deciding on DE, and I know it's a difficult one. It was a tough road, but ultimately I felt a huge sense of relief after we made that decision just because I wouldn't be fighting against my ovaries any more. I was so tired!
I was diagnosed with probable DOR at my one-day work-up CCRM, and we did our first IVF cycle there. Unfortunately, my egg quality was even worse than the tests suggested, and our cycle wasn't successful. There is a lot to be said for their really thorough approach and their excellent lab, but I was like you where it started to feel like it just wasn't going to happen with my eggs. I guess I am proof that some people don't get pregnant even at CCRM! (although that's not to say that I would never have gotten pregnant there, but we just couldn't justify the continued expenses).
We are doing the DE program at Shady Grove in Rockville, Maryland. After doing a lot of research, this really seemed like the best option for us because they have a big program with in-house donors as well as several shared risk and split-cycle options that make it way more affordable than any where else we looked. So far we have been very impressed with them.
I wish you the best with whatever path you take and look forward to being here to support you.
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!