Infertility

am i sad?

I had my consult today - RE gave me a script for prometrium & told me to take a HPT before I started.  So all afternoon I daydreamed how awesome it would be to see 2 lines....and then i was actually disappointed to see the stark-whiteyness when I POAS.  So pathetic!
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Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3

Re: am i sad?

  • no, its understandable.  a girl can dream Smile hang in there!

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  • I'm sorry :( They sure do make those negatives snow white don't they?
    DS (7 years old) from FET in 2010
    DD (5 years old) from IUI in 2012
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  • Nope, it's not pathetic. Nothing wrong with a little extra hope! (and I have done the same thing, so reading this makes me feel better) :)
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  • Not at all sad....totally understandable. 
    image 30 y/o with PCOS HSG normal, SA essentially normal (slightly low morph but good # and motility) 50 mg Clomid...zip; 100 mg Clomid...nada; 150 mg Clomid...zilch 1/10 Injectable cycle with Gonal-F, Ovidrel, and TI.....Beta 2/22...BFN 2/10 Injectable cycle with Gonal-F and Follistim (long story), Ovidrel..BFN 4/10 Injectable cycle (see above). BFP but early m/c 5w5d. 5/10 Break cycle due to BFC (Big Fat Cyst)...darn it all 6/10 Injectable cycle +IUI...BFN 7/10 Injectable cycle + IUI.....BFP!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I don't understand why they make us torture ourselves and take HPT's like that. I did the same thing as you a couple of months ago.
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    FET #1, IUI #1, 2, 3, 4 - all BFN
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  • Tests makes me sad too:< They suck. I agree that there is always that hope, but it really still stings just as bad.

    PAIF and SAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
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  • If you're sad, so am I.  My cycles are so irregular that I may not get one each month... so when I'm late, I psych myself up to test... then I will the test to show two lines.  I'm always disappointed when it's stark white.  I just keep hoping my body will cooperate and spontaneously ovulate! 
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  • Not sad... just hopeful.  And that isn't a bad thing.  I hope the next stick you pee on has two big fat lines :)
    TTC with unexplained IF since 8/2007 6 losses, one beautiful perfect boy in our arms Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • Not at all! There is always a little hope in the back of my mind as well.
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  • You are totally normal T.  I think all of us have that fantasy.
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Not sad AT ALL! Hugs.
    TTC since 8/07 DX - Severe MFI/azoospermia & MTHFR/ TESEs found sperm - 7/08 & 6/09/ 12/08 - IVF#1 - BFN/ 6/09 - IVF #2 - cancelled due to OHSS risk (had retrieval)/ 7/09 - FET #1 - BFN/ 9/09 - FET #2 - BFN/ 11/09 - IVF #3 with new RE cancelled twice - 10/09 & 11/09/ 1/10 - IVF #3 take 3 - BFN/ 4/10 - IVF #4 - first ever BFP on 5/13/10!!! 108 @ 10dp3dt/ 2nd beta 311!/ sono on 5/28/10 said TWINS!!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • not sad at all; I'd think it was sad if you had already given up on that kind of hope. I pray that this is your cycle hon!
  • oh hon I would have done the same exact thing

    I'm sorry

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  • So sorry...I stopped testing about 3 months ago. I just can't handle the BFN's anymore.
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