So I am sick for the 2nd time in 1 month. DS was getting up every hour for a few days and my allergies are horrible, can't take much in the way of antihistamines, so that turned into a bilat ear infection and sinus infection. I've been getting pressure to d/c BFing/pumping from my boss ("Wow...you're still nursing...when do you plan on weaning...isn't he old enough to stop BFing, etc...). So I went to the NP at my Dr office to get antibiotics and she started in on me with the "he isn't STTN? You need to wean him, BFing is the reason you are tired and sick..." So, with all the "support" in my life recently with being sick, I just started crying when I got home today. I couldn't wean him if I tried. He barely takes a bottle now. Tried to give him a bottle with EBM...no way mama! I'm SOOOOOOOOOO tired. We usually bedshare, I think that is why he wants to nurse all night long. Last night I put him in his swing and he slept from 7-3, nursed, then from 330-6 and up for the day. I've tried everything to fix the all night nursing/anti-crib situation/weaning situation. I just feel so hopeless sometimes. I feel that I am never going to sleep and I am going to end up nursing him forever. I just needed to vent to other AP mamas...sometimes being AP is so hard. I see my FF, Ferberizing friends IRL and they are so much more rested, and have time/energy to exercise, can go out for dates, etc. I just wish that DS would take a bottle and sleep better. I need a baby vacation for a night or something. Thanks for letting me vent! Just need to get it out!