Bad Day(kind of long)

MicahAnn · April 2010

So, 4 Mondays ago we lost our baby. We were only 9 weeks along and although we never heard the heart beat or saw our Baby Beluga on the screen alive, today is hard. My brother and sister-in-law have 3 kids 3yrs and under and today was an appointment for the baby and the oldest. My sister-in-law just txt me the update about her baby and I know she has no idea that it was on a Monday morning 5 weeks ago when we went through hell and I don't wanna hear about her healthy 20lb 6 month old. My husband works at a high school and they are starting to do baby projects this week, that is where all the kids get those computer babies and have to carry them around for a few days and that is driving him crazy. On top of that, some friends of ours told us this morning that they are pregnant. They kept it a secret for 8 weeks, mostly because we didnt keep it a secret and it was hard to go back and tell people we loss the baby and they didnt wanna have to do it too. This week they have their first sonogram.

I had my blood drawn for the LAST time Wednesday and my levels, according to the nurse who called and left the message, were "back to normal, non pregnant normal". I can hear that stupid message over and over again in my head, I don't think it was very comforting to hear it put that way. 2weeks before that draw they were at 30 so I am hoping they had been down to normal for more than a few days and my period is coming right around the corner althought I don't feel like it is. Im ready to be pregnant again! My husband is ready for us to be pregnant again! Today is just sucking and I needed to get it out!

Oh yea, and it wont stop raining!!!!

Jessicaanne_1@yahoo.com · April 2010

I'm so sorry. I am having a rough day too. They called to let me know today that the HCG level was at 0. She was very kind about it though. I'm sorry the nurse was insensitive to you.