It's amazing how much
being pregnant can suck at times and then when you meet your baby it all
becomes worth it.
My blood pressure spiked
when I went in for a regular check up on Monday (it's normally 118/70
and at this appointment I was 138/90. The doctor said that I should just
relax and he would see me for my scheduled c-section on Thursday. Well
on Tuesday I got a phone call from his office wanting me to come back in
to get rechecked. When I went in, my BP was still high (133/88), so he
wanted me to go to L&D to get monitored.
When I got to
L&D, they hooked me up to the monitors and had me lay on my left
side. The machine took my BP every 10 minutes, and they were all low
(around 124/82). After an hour of laying on my left side, I asked my
nurse if I could sit up because I was really uncomfortable. So when I
sat up and had my BP taken, it spiked to 144/98. We took a look at the
monitor, and apparently my contractions were between 2-3 minutes apart
(they were not that intense, but uncomfortable). Also, my baby was still
breech.
The doctor
walked in and said since my BP suddenly got higher and I was having
contractions, there was no sense in waiting 2 days. Since I had lunch
around 1, they wanted to wait until 8:30 to take him out. Then the
doctor took another look at the monitor and noticed that the baby's
heart rate dropped when I sat up and it took about 5 minutes to rise to
where it should be. That changed his mind immediately and he said to say
goodbye to my family and he was taking him out immediately. He couldn't
even get a 2nd doctor from my practice to come take him out, so he used
some guy from another practice.
At that point everything
happened really quickly. I wasn't really scared until they walked me
down to the operating room. I sat on the table for them to give me my
spinal block (which really wasn't that bad...the worst part was the
burning sensation). I was alone in the room with the nurses and the
anesthesiologist, and my DH and my doctor were outside the door. The
room was cold and I was nervous so I was shaking a little.
Once
the spinal set in, they laid me down on the table and put in the
catheter. They didn't strap my hands down, but made me lay with them at
my sides. They made sure I couldn't feel anything, and then my DH came
in. He looked REALLY nervous, which is really out of character for him
because he is the most level headed guy I've ever met. All of a sudden I
smelled burning. Apparently it was them
cauterizing me. Let me tell you - smelling your own flesh burning is
absolutely awful.
The surgery went a lot slower than I thought it
would. Once they got to the baby, I felt like a sandbox that people
were digging through...there was a ton of pulling. When I heard Jackson
Parker take his first cry, I cried also. It was the sweetest sound I
have ever
heard in my entire life. I told my DH and the nurses that I was in
love.
The nurses brought my DH over to have him see his son and take pictures
while they weighed and measured him (8 lbs, 1 oz and 21 inches long).
He scored a 9 on the Apgar scale both times as well. Then they brought
Jackson over to see me, and I couldn't get over the amount of hair he
had! He has such a sweet face that I can't stop staring at him.
Once
they stitched me up they sent us to recovery. They continued to take my
BP (still way high) and oxygen (apparently I was only at 90%). They
gave Jackson a bath and let me nurse him. Altogether the surgery and
recovery took 2 1/2 hours. Needless to say, my parents were in the
waiting room freaking out because it took so long. my DH went out to
show them pictures and tell them that Jackson and I were doing well.
I
ended up staying in the hospital for 4 nights. The first night was
rough because the medicine made me really itchy and I couldn't bend to
scratch my legs (which had those circulation pumps on them).
The
next day was rough because I was in a lot of pain and apparently you
bleed (like you have your period) after a c-section (which I didn't
know). I was bleeding a ton. The doctor came in to see Jackson. He has a
couple of issues that will eventually work themselves out. He's "tongue
tied" (not much though and we expect him to grow into it), and the
plates in his head are at 2 different levels because he was breech. They
are starting to get better though.
The next day was getting
better, but I was having trouble with nursing. Jackson lost weight (he
went from 8 lbs 1 oz to 7 lbs 5 oz) and my doctor told us that if he
gets to 7 lbs 4 oz that I would have to pump and supplement the
breastfeeding with a bottle. He also won't latch without a nipple
shield, which may have something to do with being tongue tied. I was
really upset when he told me this because I felt like it was my fault
and I was hurting my baby, so I went to my room and cried hysterically
(it was guilt mixed with hormones and the lack of sleep).
The
next day was good because my milk came in, so he gained weight (he went
up to 7 lbs 9 oz). He is really weird with his feedings though. He'll
latch to one side for about 10 minutes, fall asleep, and then refuse to
latch to the other side. I've tried everything to fix this - undressing
him, changing him, and even putting a couple of drops of cold water on
his face. It's getting better now that we're getting more used to each
other, but it's still tough.
All I have to say is that my little
man is the most important, wonderful, amazing, beautiful, unbelievable
thing to ever happen to me. I just can't describe the love I feel for
him. I don't mind waking up to feed him because I can just stare at him
for hours. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful baby.