I want to run away.....

LeoChic

I'm seriously about to lose my mind.  I haven't had a full night's sleep in so long and I'm so freaking tired all the time and I think it's finally catching up to me.  I couldn't sleep a full night during pregnancy from 2nd trimester on because of heartburn, insomnia, getting up to pee a billion times a night, restless leg syndrome (had that bad during pregnancy)!

My infant daughter is still getting up a couple times a night which I understand is perfectly reasonable for her age.  It's just exhausting.  She always does pretty good the 1st part of the evening.  Then she'll wake around 2-3 to eat and she'll fall back asleep for about an hour and then she's restless for the rest of the night.  Plus, she wants to eat every 4 hours at night....on the dot practically.  I know she can go 5-6 hours between feedings because she has done it during the day.  Plus I can NEVER fall back asleep after I feed her in the middle of the night.  I lay awake tossing and turning in bed and my mind races.  DH and I even switch off nights so every other night I'm supposed to be getting a full night's sleep but I never can.  I've tried taking a sleeping pill on my off nights but I end up so groggy the next day that I can barely function.

On top of that is the fact that my house is always a mess and I can't take it anymore.  I don't get a break from the kids long enough to have a reasonable amount of time to really get to clean.  Since I'm home all the time now, I can't stand looking at the mess all day, every day.  I finally got a chance just now to go wash dishes and a MOUSE came out from under the dirty dishes and went scurrying across the counter.  GROSS!!!  I'm terrified of mice for some reason so I started screaming and shaking and went into the fetal position in  a corner.  DH came downstairs and killed the thing but now I'm all freaked out about seeing another one -- because we all know there's probably more. DH says he'll set traps tonight and that it's "just that time of year".  So now I'll lay awake in bed tonight worried about mice running around the house!!  And DH says "stop acting like that" as I panic because he doesn't get the fear I have.

There's a bunch more going on....issues with my company as we clarify the terms of my resignation, transitioning back to being a SAHM (which I admittedly don't love), school, DD#1's sleeping issues, DD#1's birthday in a week so trying to plan and get ready for that, gotta get the girl's Easter dresses soon, DD#2's baptism next month so planning for that, family pictures next month so planning for that.  I'm just completely overwhelmed and I really just want a freaking break!!

xbrooklyngrl

can you take off tomorrow and take the kids into daycare or wherever they go and just relax?

Also, try to remember nothing wil happen if you don't have their dreeses in time, or the pictures aren't perfect. Its really not a big deal.

isabella22

Hugs!

I just want to say that lack of sleep makes EVERYTHING seem impossible.  Find a way to get a good night sleep and that will make everything else more manageable.  Even if you have to go to a hotel by yourself for a night.

Get some sleep.

And, tell your DH how you feel. Remember that you are a team and tell him what you need that you are about to lose it.

Amanda&Chris

Lack of sleep is awful and makes everything seem 1000 times worse than it actually is.

First, don't let the baby go 5-6 hours during the day without eating.  Wake her up to feed her every 3 or 4 hours so that she's eating more during the day and might start eating less at night.

Second, try taking 1/2 a sleeping pill.  Or a Unisom which isn't suposed to make you groggy.  I hardly ever take meds but I did take a Unisom a couple of times when I was pg and it wasn't too bad.

Third, is there any way you can get a cleaning service?  Even every other week or once a month? 

Mrs.JDD

isabella22:

Hugs!

I just want to say that lack of sleep makes EVERYTHING seem impossible.  Find a way to get a good night sleep and that will make everything else more manageable.  Even if you have to go to a hotel by yourself for a night.

Get some sleep.

And, tell your DH how you feel. Remember that you are a team and tell him what you need that you are about to lose it.

THIS. Exactly. I'm in the same boat with sleeping, only my kid is almost 11 months old and certainly should be sleeping by now!! Tomorrow night I have a room at the Hampton in my town and I'm sleeping there. And I'm over the guilt of it...in fact, I'm quite excited

LeoChic

isabella22:

And, tell your DH how you feel. Remember that you are a team and tell him what you need that you are about to lose it.

OMG -- I've tried.  I've tried so hard to explain to him how I feel.  He listens says "I get it.  I'll try to help more.  I'll do better."  But then does nothing different.  He went out of town for an entire week (for an unnecessary business trip) and left me alone with both kids when I had an exam for my class and we got dumped on with a crap ton of snow.  The snow was so bad that our gutters backed up and water started pouring into our kitchen leaving me with a mess.  During the week I texted him saying that I was going to get a hotel room for the weekend once he was home.  He acted like he would book it for me but then he never did.  He knew what a tough week that was for me yet has not done anything to really "give me a break" since his return.  I know I need to just do what I need to do on my own but for once I'd like for him to recognize my needs and do something for me.  And I've TOLD him this so it isn't like I expect him to read my mind.

xbrooklyngrl

I think if you go a little apeshiit on his a$$ he might get the point better.

Nothing spells I NEED A FOCKING BREAK like really losing it.

I hope you get a break soon!

Susie2005

I'll run away with you.  I haven't slept through the night in at least 18 months between pregnancy and the first year of DD's life (she'll be one on Saturday).  I just psted above about her ear infections and impending tube surgery.  I right there with you.  We'll mkae it, we have to.  We're moms and that's waht we do.  Hang in there.