A bit Blue

hoshicat

I'm feeling a bit blue.

SO and I live in a 2 bedroom apartment with his sister. Both SO and I had furniture before we got together, and our little apartment is still crowded, despite what we've gotten rid of. 

We don't have a room for baby though, and there is really no room for him in our room. We have the bassinet up, but I don't think we have room anywhere else for anything. We just had a baby shower on Saturday and got so many amazing things, which are now stacked sticking out of our closets. We each have half a closet on either side of our "hallway" to the bathroom in our room.  I want to nest and get everything clean and ready for baby, but I don't even feel like I can because we don't have the room to do anything. I'm afraid of washing things too because the washer and dryer are in the laundry room, I don't want to have some left over soap residue in one that will irritate baby, and I don't have the money to waste to wash it out before hand.

I feel like this is something that I shouldn't burden SO with, because it seems so insignificant, but at the same time it means a lot that I can't get ready like I'd like to. There isn't even anything he could really do about it, and he's spending all of his time trying to find a job.

Sorry ladies, I just feel down and needed to try and get it off my chest somehow.