How is everyone doing?

jen629

I was gone for a few days as I got a couple days off to spend with the hubby finally and it was well needed.......I would like to say after 18 days I believe I have stopped bleeding..HALLELUAH!...... I went this morning and had my blood work done to check if my HCG level has gone down and hopefully that I am not too anemic and also the RPL panel so that was a nice 10 vials of blood..lol...I am starting to mentally feel a little better since the bleeding has stopped as it isn't a constant reminder....Hope everyone is doing well and anyone who is having a difficult weekend big hugs to all:)

ownedby3

Hi Jen!  I'm glad you are feeling better and had some much needed time off.  I'm doing ok, ready to get back on the horse and try again.  My first big step is going back to work on Monday.  Blahhh, I like not working!

Yay for no bleeding!  Mine has been on and off the last few days.  I'm over the pads and granny panties so I hope it comes to an end soon

 

jen629

Yeah the pads were starting to piss me off..lol...yeah they said the blood tests results should be back in 14 days so hopefully by then we will have an answer and can try again after my period...but I would be lying if I didn't say I am so scared

Laurakat81

Good to hear you've stopped bleeding and for quality time with the DH! I can't wait for the day I stop bleeding too! I'm actually having a "good" day myself but I must admit that "good" days now just mean a calm before the storm...I hope this time the storm is really over! I'm so tired of crying my eyes out for hours on end!

ownedby3

I am petrified after one m/c, I can't imagine what you are feeling after two.  Are you finding a new doctor or going to a RE?  I would love to get RPL done, but I don't think my doctor will go for it after only one m/c.

 

jen629

Well I think because of my age he let me do the bloodwork...I am just having my regular Gyne do it while I look for another doctor

spincat9

This is only my 1st day after the D&C - everything is raw.  I'm "fine" (if that's possible) one second, and bawling the next.  Am having a hard time caring about much of anything which is uncharacteristically self-absorbed for me.

Am trying to focus on the practical side of things (i.e. mother nature took care of a baby that couldn't have made it), but I'm so mad that my first baby is now gone.  So many emotions all bundled up with the hormones, it's confusing and unsettling.  Anger, sadness, guilt, you name it...  My mother in law is so upset but I don't have much left to offer her in terms of support, which I feel bad about.

Hoping to see the "light" soon.  If anyone has any advice for navigating through these first few very hard days, I'm open to suggestions... 

Hope you are all doing well, and thanks for participating in this - it's really helpful to know of others going through this.  I'm sorry for your losses. 

jen629

Spincat I am so sorry that this is so raw and new for you...this board has given me a ton of comfort over the last month so just know we are all here for you and I am sending out a big hug:)

babysantel

I'm glad to hear your bleeding has stopped.  I hope you had a nice break with your DH.  Good luck with all of your blood work! 

bbhalphen

I'm glad you stopped bleeding, although I hate that you bled for that long!  I'm on Day 8 right now.  Still sucks.  Anyway, was that all of your bloodwork? I hope you get good news!  Did they go ahead and take it even though they're not sure if your hormone levels are 0?  I go back Feb. 11 and I will be in the same boat.

jen629

Yes my doctor said they could do it now  they are doing an HCG also so hopefully its back at zero

bmp84

::hugs everyone in post::

I was taking steps forward, but the last couple days have been steps backwards. I want the bleeding/cramping/stabby feelings to go away so I can mentally start to recover.

jen629

BMP hugs right back at you ...its the worst part with the pain and not knowing ...know we are here for you:)