So.. I work part-time.. Seriously, my job is great.. I spend the day with Eve most days then go to work at like 4 or 5..I generally work 4 nights a week..
Somehow though, the way the schedule worked out and because i picked up an extra shift (My friend/coworker's mother died very unexpectedly last Friday).. From the 11th to the 29th, I only have three days off. This coming Sunday DH and I are both off, but the other two days that I am off he is/was working. I feel like I haven't seen him at all..and when we do see each other we're not really getting along very well... and I HATE not getting to put Eve to bed most nights.
Last night I was really sad.. I was only scheduled to work til 10.. and sometimes on weeknights I can get done a good bit earlier than that (on Monday I was scheduled til 10 and i was out the door by 9).. so I had it in my head that I was maybe going to get home before Eve's bedtime.. Well I got stuck there til 10:30. I seriously was about to cry right there..and its so stupid, because its just part of the job.. Sometimes you get done early, sometimes late.. Its not the end of the world.. AND it turns out that Eve had taken a super late nap (daddy watched her last night, not grandma) and she was still up when I got home at 11. So I did get to see her and put her to bed.. so that was good.. but then I feel like I'm so tired during the day that i'm not a good mom. I did NOT want to get up with her this morning..
Tonight and tomorrow night then I get a day off..