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In an IVF daze (#3)

njdcgirlnjdcgirl member
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The same thing happened to me last cycle. 

I'm in the middle of stimming - I'm doing everything the doctor asked - including taking about 15 supplement pills a day (some that are just NASTY), doing accupuncture, doing my shots, going in for b/w, etc. - but I just can't seem to care that much.

I think I'm hopeful.  I'm not overly negative, at all.  I know this is my best shot - new protocol, new doctor, new everything.  But, I just feel like I am walking in a daze.

This happen to anyone else during their cycles?  I think I'm more excited to see how the ladies on here are responding to their cycles than I do my own!

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Re: In an IVF daze (#3)

  • Mrs.JohnsMrs.Johns member
    It sounds like that is your coping mechanism. Everyone handles it differently and you have to do what you have to do to get by. I really hope this works for you. Sending tons of vibes for a great cycle! :)
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  • k827k827
    This is how I did cope and how I am still coping. Sending tons of positive vibes for a great cycle!
    TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April
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  • iluvadamiluvadam

    I am a little bit like that right now.  But, being that it is my first IVF, I defintitely am having some ups and downs.  But for sure, I am so excited to see how others are doing. 

    Maybe this is your body's defense mechanism.  As in, you are trying to protect yourself from possibly feeling disappointment if it doesn't work out.  I don't know, but just a guess. 

    Dx with severe endometriosis. DS#1 conceived with Met and TI. TTC#2 for 2.5 yrs. Dx 2nd IF. 4 clomid cycles, 2 IUIs, Finally IVF#1 w/ICSI worked for us! twins born 35w3d. Unexpected total hysterectomy 6/11. Now on the HRT train.

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  • smeyersmeyer member

    I always did that with my cycles.  I focused on the task at hand, it very much felt like I was just going thru the paces.  I know it was my coping mechanism.  If it works for you and it isn't harming you or others, it's 100% OK.  Honestly, I've always been kinda zen about the whole IF situation.  Sure, I'd have my low moments but most of the time I just kept truckin' on.  

    Good luck this cycle!  :) 


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  • jennim1984jennim1984

    It happened a little to me too, I almost didn't really want to talk to anyone either. I didn't want people to be overly positive saying oh "you're gonna have a baby soon" or overly negative saying"this is probably not going to work". None of my family or friends have a clue about IF so I got both ends of that spectrum. I think it's normal because especially during stims your life revolves around ivf. It's hard to explain but I felt a little disconnected from it too...

    You should be hopeful though, you have a new protocol and doctor and sometimes it takes finding out what works with your body to have success! Hang in there :)

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  • njdcgirlnjdcgirl member

    Thanks ladies.  I think you are all right re: coping mechanism.  Sometimes I can't even believe I am here - WTF - IVF #3??? 

    After each fail, it is clear that I am not ready to give up yet, but on the other hand, am I in a losing battle?  I have so much respect for both sides of the fence - ladies who have done 3, 4, 5 or more IVFs and finally get their BFPs make me want to try - just one more time....  And the ladies who have grieved and moved to DE or adoption, and have their babies that way.

    I just want to be a mom.  Grrr - IF is a mindfvck!!!

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