Babysat yesterday... wasn't expecting these emotions!

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Yesterday I babysat for DH's coworker's daughter, who is about 9 months old.  I haven't babysat her before, and I haven't baby sat at ALL in years.  I felt so odd, trying to keep her busy, feeding her, etc. and still going about my own business... (I have GD, and I MUST stick to a timely eating & blood testing schedule), and trying to keep an eye on her whenever I needed to go to the bathroom (which was often)... and picking her up and down, and carrying her up and down the stairs was so exhausting for a 7-months pregnant person like me... whew, I felt like I was going to pass out!

And the stressful thing (emotionally) was me realizing that everything was going well- she was so good, and no trouble at all- but I still felt so overwhelmed.  I felt so unknowledgable!  And it hit me OMG I'm going to have one of my own soon!  It was so weird babysitting this little person that I didn't know, and wasn't bonded with, and trying to figure her out, and it was scary!  The hormonal part hit me as I fed her one of her bottles as I held her on the couch.  She was tucked into my arm and half on my belly, and my OWN baby started kicking and rolling around- directly underneath.  It was WEIRD.  Like one baby on top of the other, and one was mine and one wasn't, and I don't even know my own LO yet, and I felt almost guilty (lol) thinking my own LO might be jealous... I was on an emotional roller coaster yesterday, and scared myself thinking that I'm going to be a mom soon!  And hoping I'm going to be a good one, better than I am at babysitting!

Whew!  I never ramble like that but I guess the emotions are still there, shaking me up a bit!  Thanx for listening!

skmac05

I can totally see how this can be overwhelming!!! Just remember, you will know your LO up and down. You won't feel like you have to "entertain" him every second because you will know his likes and dislikes and such.

anabell0920

skmac05:

I can totally see how this can be overwhelming!!! Just remember, you will know your LO up and down. You won't feel like you have to "entertain" him every second because you will know his likes and dislikes and such.

This plus thank goodness they come out so small and tired! lol Just think they build their way up to that. I know I get overwhelmed with other kids but I am sure we will do great! We just gotta learn right along with our LO's!

Sawyerplus1

Don't worry. While it can still be a steep learning curve, everything comes so much more naturally with your own!

Califlorida

well, luckily you won't give birth to a 9 month old, lol!  newborns are easy peasy once you start getting to know each other.  they sleep all the time, wake up to eat, be changed, play for a bit and fall back asleep.  so much less work than the toddler currently running my house.