So I have this friend, whom I adore. She's got 2 kiddos and has had a horrible run over the past few years. She had a 20 week loss followed by an early (5w?) loss followed by a 17 week loss. They took some time off and couldn't agree on whether to try anymore or what. Anyhow, early this year they decided they'd just leave it up to God and go where it may. She just called me. She just got a BFP and is due 9/2!!!!
She's helped me through this year in ways I cannot explain. I'm excited at the potential for the two of us to be due date(ish) buddies and go through this. . . and yet I'm sick at the potential for things to go wrong. . . and yet I'm so happy I'm weeping.
(Also, aside: My u/s is Monday. I'm convinced that something's wrong. I'm ignoring myself. That's normal right? After 3 losses this year, it's normal to expect a loss at that u/s? I say my affirmations every day, I try to think positively, I do what I can, but if you asked me "Do you think you'll be having a baby next August?" the best answer you could get at the best moment is: "shrug. Dunno. Maybe?")