I've been lurking for about 2 months. My second son, Riley, was born w/ Down Syndrome. We had no idea, and was completely taken by surprise by his diagnosis. As you know, we've been crazy busy since his birth w/ various doctor's appointments, and learning how we can be the best parents to Riley, and to our 20 month old son, Austin.
People keep telling me what a blessing Riley will be for us, but I am not quite there. I love my son, but I don't love the Down Syndrome...which may sound like a stupid statement, but I guess that's just where I am. We are very lucky that he is overall helathy, and has had no major surgeries etc...
I guess this post is just about introducing my family, and venting a little. I still get very emotional at silly little things, and am having tons of mom guilt about irrational things in Riley's life. I am trying really hard to just be happy, but it is so difficult sometimes. I keep looking into the future and wondering if I will ever not be sad. I know it will happen, but it seems so far off.
Thanks for listening!