Feeling like we'll be the last baby in the NICU

JrzyMeeba1

We all know what a 'roller coaster' ride the NICU is.  Things don't seem bad when the day is going relatively well.. and on a bad day, you feel like you'll be there forever.  Today just made me feel like we're going to be the last baby left in the NICU.  It seems like we've watched so many babies come in and go out.. and like every other child's issues are less complex than our son's.  His neighbor is of a very similar gestational age, and is leaps and bounds ahead of Hunter.

I know it's not fair to compare, and that each baby has his or her own things to conquer.  And although I envy the parents who have babies they can take home sooner, I certainly don't resent them for it.  I just wish our day would come sooner.. that I felt closer to going home than to the beginning of our stay.

My apologies for being a bit of a downer.. but I knew this was one of the very few places anyone else would understand where I'm coming from, emotionally.

KellyMichelle

I'm sorry, some days are like that.  I hope tomorrow is a better day. *hugs*

Mrs.tlcS

((hugs))  I hope tomorrow is a good day.

 

Denesdia

You made my heart ache for you.  I remember feeling that way many days, but more so towards the end of our 96 day stay.  I am sending lots of good energy your way...know that your discharge day will come, and it will make it all worth it!

lemen99

I'm sorry

(((HUGS))))

mustangcutie

I'm so sorry ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))).  When we were in the NICU I remember seeing many babies come and go before DS. It was so frustrating!  Hang in there!

beachykeen1723

My Cooper was the same way. I lost it one day when a baby who was 31 weeks came in, and was bigger than my 33 week GA little guy. We watched parents hold babies who were half Cooper's size, since he would desat every time we held him. I saw (no joke) probably 30 babies come and go from level 3, while we still waited for Cooper's breathing to get better.

I didn't feel close to going home until the day before- I was just waiting for something to happen so he had to stay longer. We had an issue getting a prescription, and when I got on the phone with his nurse I WAILED- not a cute cry, not even an understandable cry- a WAIL. 

But- we are home now. I promise, promise, promise, one day you will be holding Hunter in bed with you, and think- wow, that seems like nothing.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way- I was there many times. It will get better and he will come home (HUGS!!)

Sweets2005

I remember feeling the same way. It is so hard! I can only imagine how hard it must be with a micropreemie when their road is so much longer. This time next year though you will wonder where the time went.

When mine were a couple weeks old another 32 week preemie was born and he immediately could take four ounces from a bottle!!! Mine weren't even trying to nipple yet and I felt like we would be there forever. Mine still barely will take that much, by the way! .

You are doing a great job though! I keep up with your blog and Hunter is SO cute!

gwenypher7

Oh, I remember that feeling - and we didn't have to go through nearly as much as you and your husband have. I'm so sorry. It helped to remind myself that Abby was in the exact place she needed to be at that time.

I will pray that Hunter continues to thrive and that you will get to take him home just as soon as he is ready. Good luck!

At1stsight

::hugs:: I had a few days like this. While we were in Level 3, I was too engrossed with DS to worry about what any other baby was doing, but in Level 2, there were a number of kiddos that came and went with just a few days stay. That was tough, to see all the discharges while we were still waiting on DS to learn to eat. I hope things go better for you today and tomorrow!

msalinardi@live.com

Feel better The NICU sucks no matter what! I tried to not get involved with the other babies because I couldn't help comparing and that never helped. Your LO will come home when they are ready and it will be amazing!

meldoo2002

I'm so sorry you're having a down day.  We too had days like that.  I watched 2 other sets of twins come in after our boys and go home before our boys... they were born further into the pregnancy though.  I loved the NICU staff which helped, but every day seemed like our journey in the NICU would never end.  Looking back... it's just a blip on the radar.  Having them home has flown by and it's amazing how the NICU is just a 2nd thought now.  Hang in there and always know we're here when you need to vent!

here4u

I felt like that, especially toward the home stretch, and we were given discharge dates 3x.  BUT you will go home, and it will be memorable.

courtina

i hear you!  we just got 'demoted' back out of the transitional nursery b/c one of my guys is not doing as well as hoped.  i am so bummed.