I seriously.. cannot take it sometimes...
ironically I see Cutemin probably feels the same as I do today..
DH got accepted into grad school that starts Jan 5. It is bad enough I am basically just about in tears by the time he gets home at 4pm - no less that he is basically never going to have free time any more.
I haven't had a decent meal in ages, I am so freaking sick of cooking. I have alternated between 2 "fat" sweatpants and 2 nasty old sweatshirts in the past 9 weeks, because a) nothing fits and b) it is going to get vomited on anyway. Besides, I don't leave the house, so what do I care?
I can't take the kids crying at me all day long. Hailey cries and cries, and then Natalie starts screaming at me. I know there is some sort of competition for mommy's attention and I cannot handle it any more. I have given every ounce of my being to my kids and all my free time is spent cleaning or cooking or wrapping gifts or whatever...
Today I feel like I'm about to snap because I haven't had a nap in weeks, DH is going to be home late, and as soon as I sit down, the baby wakes up. It is some sort of psychological torture that is really working quite well to mess me up.
DH has been helping out a lot, he basically takes my toddler once he gets home, but I think about him going to grad school and I totally panic, I know it is going to be a nightmare for me as selfish as it sounds.
Thanks for hearing me vent.. any ideas? I don't want to send DD to preschool because I can't have her bringing germs home (and we have been majorly sick every winter so I'm trying to do everything I can to prevent that). I am thinking of hiring someone to come watch my toddler at least 1 night a week? I feel like she (the toddler) is super resentful, and rightly so, so it makes me feel that much more horrible because I literally never play with her any more.