Infertility

POAS = BF-FUCKEN-N

now to add insult to injury I have to go get a negative beta.

and I get to pretend it's all fine since it's D's b-day.

I hate this shi!t so much.

I just feel so stupid for thinking this worked.  I even bought D a happy birthday daddy card and an I love daddy bib to tell him the good news.  God, I hope I hid it good enough so he never finds it.  :(

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Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
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It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
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  • Oh no worms..my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry IF sucks..

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there.

    {{Hugs}}

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  • Oh worms, I'm so sorry.  You are not stupid for thinking this cycle worked; you were trying to be hopeful.  Lots and lots of hugs to you.
    TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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  • Darn it!!  I am so sorry!  (((HUGS)))
  • Oh...Worms... I am soo sorry.  I am so very sorry.  When I saw yoru title, I started tearing up.  IF TOTALLY SUCKS! I'm keeping you in my T&Ps.
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  • NO! Hon pls hang in there, you have many more chances. I know how heartbreaking it is though.
  • Worms! I'm so so so sorry!  That is not what you want to wake up to. You still have to go for a beta?? Not fair. :(  It will happen. Just keep going girl. I wish I could take it away for you.  ((hugs))
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  • No!! This sucks so bad! My heart is just broken for you!! I'll be thinking of you all day.... I just want to punch something, I hate IF!!
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  • I am so very sorry worms. :(  There re no words, I know.  Bug hugs to you and your DH.
  • I'm so sorry! :(

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  • Oh, I'm sorry. That is so completely sucky.
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  • I am so sorry ((hugs))
    A lot of years and a million tears finally led me to you.
    After 7 years trying to concieve, 3 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVFs, my third IVF was a success!
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  • Dammit, dammit! I'm so sorry worms, IF really fucken sucks!

    My heart just sank, (((BIG HUGS))) to you. I will be thinking of you today.

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  • I am so sorry! I hate IF today!
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  • i'm sorry:(  i hate those times....:( *HUGS*
    1 chemical and 1 loss at 9 weeks prior to DS
    IVF #1 1/10-transfered 2 blasts- DS born 10/2010

    Trying for # 2 since 2012.  2 failed FETS 1 failed IUI.
    IUI#2 4/14/14-- BFP !!!!! Beta #1 14dpiui= 45 Beta #2 16dpiui= 80  Beta #3 18dpiui= 88 (chemical pregnancy)
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  • I'm sorry :(

     

    (((HUGS)))

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  • Ugh.  I'm so sorry about your BFN.  I'm hoping the beta will pick up something that the HPT can't.  ((HUGS))
    PCOS, lupus anticoagulant, MTHFR (A1298C, one copy) 2 IUIs & 1 IVF = BFN FET#1 = It's a girl! Born 7.1.10 FET#2 = c/p FET#3 = Twin girls! Born on 3.16.12 at 33w2d due to severe pre-E. After 4 weeks in the NICU they are home! Lilypie Third Birthday tickers
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  • No! Oh worms, I am so, so sorry. IF effin sucks!

    Sending you (((((hugehugs))))) today hon.

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  • i really really don't want to beleive it.  =(     ::hugs::  and i am still wishing and hoping and praying for a + beta today
    S/PAIFW
    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
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  • No no no!  I'm so sorry Worms :( 

    (((really big hugs)))

  • Aww hon, I am so sorry.  It sucks to have to go get the negative beta.  I hope you can put on a happy face for D's birthday.  I wish I could hug you IRL right now.
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  • I am so very sorry.
    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • I'm so sorry hon.  Big time hugs to you.  
    Surprise BFP after 5 yrs of TTC
  • Oh honey, I am so so sorry.  This sucks and it's totally unfair not to mention just god awful timing.  I wish I could give you a big IRL hug now.

    I know it's hard to hear this now but please try and stay positive, this WILL work for you - it's just gonna take one more try.    Hold on to that bib, you're gonna need it and don't EVER feel stupid for being hopeful.  You're the one who finds hope when the rest of us are down and I love you for it. 

    ((HUGS)) wormy

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  • I'm so sorry worms  Crying
  • I'm so sorry.  I really had high hopes for you.  This just sucks.  Hugs to you today.

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  • I'm so sorry. 
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  • ((Hugs)) I am so sorry worms!  Don't feel stupid for being hopeful, I think its next to impossible to go through this without some hope that it will work.  
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  • I am so very sorry.
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  • I am so sorry, it is so unfair! You are in my T &P's (((HUGS)))
  • I am so sorry ML.  What sh!tty news - I hope you and D still have a decent day.

    Thinking about you!

    (((HUGS)))

  • Im so so sorry :(
    TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April
  • I'm so sorry. The highs and lows of this process just suck.
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  • Oh sweetie I am so sorry :(
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  • Oh no!  I'm so sorry.  And there's nothing stupid about being hopeful.  ((HUGS))
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  • So sorry worms.
    Dx: MFI, DOR, 9 Fibroids and homozygous MTHFR

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  • Oh Worms. Fluck. I'm so sorry. I wanted this so bad for you. (((hugs)))
    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
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  • I'm really sorry.  I will pray that the beta picks up something after all but if not, stay strong and never give up.  And please don't beat yourself up for being positive and optimistic or for buying that stuff for D. It was a beautiful and thoughtful gesture that any of us would have done. If you find you are having too tough of a time with this don't be afraid to open up and share with D, something tells me he will be so very supportive and touched and he can help you heal, as will we!

    Sending lots of thoughts, prayers, love and hugs your way.

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  • oh worms, I am so so sorry.  This just breaks my heart.  Remember that we are all here for you hon.

    sending you ((((bighugs)))

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