f/u to low hearbeat...

Meghan1017

Just to bring you up to speed, I had an u/s last week that showed the baby measuring on time, 8w5d, but with a low HR, only in the 70s. I had my follow up u/s today, and there was no heartbeat, and no growth from last week. The ultrasound tech said that the baby "didn't look right" on last week's scan, but she didn't elaborate, so I don't know if she meant that physically, the baby looked deformed, or if it just looked like a baby that wasn't going to make it.

I'm going to have a D&C tomorrow afternoon.  My husband and I had discussed our worst-case scenario options this weekend, and we both think that's our best option.  My body has shown no signs of letting go this past week, and I can't stand the idea of waiting.  I don't want to see it happen, either.  I was almost 9 weeks, according to the bump, my baby was about the size of a raspberry...that's a decent size.  As gross and morbid as it sounds, I don't want to miscarry at home, and see the clots and wonder, "Is that one my baby?".

I'm just kind of numb right now.  I had my deep depression, grieving last week, and as much as I was hoping and praying for better news today, I do have to say that a definitive answer is not nearly as hard as the waiting.  We stopped at Starbucks on the way home, and I'm drinking a gingerbread latte with all the caffeine they could pack into it.  I think we're going to have sushi for dinner, and I am going to have a big old drink this weekend.

Sonadora

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story sounds so similar to mine...low heartbeat, small, then no heartbeat.

JuJuBe3

I am so sorry for your loss.  I totally understand your thought process with the D&C.  It is hard.  My baby didn't want to let go either.  The surgery is physically easy, emotionally hard.  My T&P to you.

pennynjon

So sorry...I will be praying for you.

Scout05

I'm so sorry for your loss. Our Pumpkin's loss went the same - low h/b, to lower h/b, and then no h/b at 8 weeks, 3 days.

I really think, if possible, a D&C is the kindest and gentlest way to end the loss. It's horrible, but at least the physical part is over and you can focus on the healing. That's JMO, of course.

HeatherPB1020

I am so sorry for your loss.. I understand how you feel.... I started to miscarry at home at it was awful. 

MSC03

I'm so sorry for your loss, Meghan. Whichever way you go, just keep taking care of yourself and doing what's right for you. ((HUGS))

pepomntpat

Your story sounds similar to mine and I agree that the D&C/E is the way to go.  I couldn't stand the idea of waiting either.  I am so sorry for your loss {{hugs}}