keep worrying about the future

cjdub13

We are on a break due to cyst but will do another cycle of Clomid, Ovidrel, and IUI #2 as soon as we are given the green light. ?I can't help but obsess and worry about the future procedures. ?Our insurance will only cover six IUI per pregnancy and not IVF. ?I am worried what our next steps will be if we don't get that BFP in the next few months. ?I try not to think about it, but we don't have that kind of money saved. ?I hope and pray we won't get to that point, but worry we will.... Then what?? ?I hate IF.

albjag

I know- I worry all the time.  We're all OOP- so now we're taking an indefinite break to save for IVF.  Since my two IUIs failed.  I hate it.

I feel like I have to put my life on hold and save, save, save- but then I also worry IVF wont work and then what?  So I take it day by day.  And even though we're in major pay off debt/save mode- I'm still going to alot some fun/ unnecessary expenses for us.  I'd rather have my sanity and have fun, you know?  

I hate how I see everything as a comparison to the cost of a treatment cycle too. 

cjdub13

We were trying to figure out if we were going to go on vacation this year and in my head I am thinking, wow, that's a lot of money that we could be saving, but know it would be good for us to go!! ?

thebeadinglady

My insurance covers procedures (6 IUI and 3 IVF) but not drugs, and even I worry about the future and money. We have decided to put limits on how much we spend on each other for christmas just in case this cycle doesn't work and we have to move on to injectables next cycle.

jehnm

I always say that money is 1/2 the depression of infertility.  If I had unlimited funds, I would feel more hopeful about our situation.  We are 100% OOP for everything and we are both social workers so not exactly in a high income bracket.  I keep telling myself the money will be there as we need it, but I worry all the time about it too.  And yes, it feels like putting life on hold, no vacations, concerts, shopping, house projects, etc until we have a baby because we are saving every dime we can.  I hate it and every month that we spend money on treatments and don't get a BFP just feels like throwing money away!

waitingforbaby#2

We are completely OOP and are concerned about that as well. If a couple IUI's don;t work I'm not sure what we will do.....

Annbe1le

cjdub13:

We are on a break due to cyst but will do another cycle of Clomid, Ovidrel, and IUI #2 as soon as we are given the green light.  I can't help but obsess and worry about the future procedures.  Our insurance will only cover six IUI per pregnancy and not IVF.  I am worried what our next steps will be if we don't get that BFP in the next few months.  I try not to think about it, but we don't have that kind of money saved.  I hope and pray we won't get to that point, but worry we will.... Then what??  I hate IF.

 

THIS is exactly us right now. Cyst, waiting for same treatment, etc. Our insurance doesn't cover any IUI however. But yeah, I'm totally feeling you on this one. What if, what if, what if...