and back to panic-long

Dee1028

I have been trying to avoid posting this because I could potentially get flamed for overreacting but I really need to get it off my chest. (I did post what happened but not how I am feeling and the girls on the Infertility board were great with providing info about the procedure and their experiences)

My appointment with my doctor earlier this week was not great. He thinks that due to a bowel resection I had about 14-15 years ago that there may be scar tissue blocking my fallopian tubes. I have to go for an HSG which I am getting mixed reviews about. But I am in complete shock and worry about this. I was not at all prepared to hear what he had to say. I have cried quite a few times and am thinking the worst.

I am really trying to stay positive but I have this knot in my stomach and lump in my throat. I go from feeling sorry for myself and being upset to telling myself not to jump to conclusions and staying positive. Today, the knot in my stomach is back. I just want the test to be done so I get some actual answers.

If you made it through the whole post, thanks for taking the time to read it...I feel like someone is listening when I post.

 

kittybits21

I'm so sorry! I think I understand how you feel, but because of a completely different situation. I hate the "not knowing" parts of life, where you just have to wait and wait...I don't think you're overreacting. how you feel is how you feel, and if you are scared it's ok.

I hope you get your answers soon and they are good!

horizon1322

No flames here. That's scary to hear, and I'm so sorry you're having to go through that. Try to keep positive (like you said), and know you can always come here to vent.

::hugs::

ToshaGirl

I think it's normal to be scared/apprehensive. Though I know it's hard: Try not to worry too much until you absolutely have something to worry about.

As for the HSG, I had 2 and both were pain free except for a slight cramp.

I'll keep my fingers crossed that it's all just fine

boxermama24

I'm sorry, Dee. I don't know what else to say.  Your worries are completely legitimate and you don't need to feel like you'll be flamed for them.

XXXXX222

fredalina:

You won't get flames from me; i know what horrible news that is.  Hang in there, and remember that the test itself sometimes helps.  ((Hugs))

Yes yes, big ditto. *hugs*