I nursed for the last time :(

preg_amy

I just got done putting DS to bed.  I nursed him for the last time... and I cried the whole time.  I think he knew, because before he would fuss a lot when I tried to nurse him (partly why I decided to stop right at a year), but he did great and even fell asleep, which he hardly ever did.

I just kept thinking about how many times I had sat in that chair and nursed him over the past year...

Ugh, I'm going to start crying again.  I think DH thinks I'm a basketcase because this is getting to me so much.

I really do want to stop, though.  I just needed to plan my last time, just so that I wouldn't look back and say "I wish I had cherished feeding him that last time."  

Is it like this for everyone or am I just too emotional?

b15chik

Aww you made me tear up, I wasn't able to bf . I'm so sorry you're sad but you did it for a year, that's awesome! Go you!

by your side

i was only able to nurse for a month and i was super emotional...i can't even imagine a year of close bonding...so lucky...you have given him something so special it's only natural to feel that way!!!

adncarrie

I am crying reading your post b/c I am thinking about how much I'll hate it.  You are normal. 

jen_and_scott

Oh, that was so me. I cried and cried and cried, I think you're perfectly normal. I had to stop at 6mo due to health reasons (me, not her) and I was so sad.

It gets easier Mama, promise.

TrumpetBride

Ok, I just started crying.

I completely understand about planning it.  I didn't with Jack when we stopped and now even though I'm trying to re-lactate there is no way we'll have a nursing relationship, just EP.  It is something I beat myself up over everyday wishing I would've appreciated it more and not b!tched about it. 

Congratulations for making it a year.  That is a HUGE mega kudos in my book.

Mrs.Hoffman

I just read your post and teared up.  I actually was tearing up to DH tonight about the same topic.  I know I'm going to miss it so much and I'm already thinking about that last time.  I have 6 months to go (hopefully I can make it that long), but just thinking about quitting gets me emotional.

goodheartedmommy

I nursed for the last time last week. My milk had been way down for about a month, and then completely disappeared, I knew it was coming. I was ready to quit fighting to keep my supply up. I'm still sad. I never had that "last" session with my girls...I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing, really.

Mysterious_Mama

i wonder what jcm would have to say about this?  j/k

i think it will be like that for me too.  i nurse dd once per day now.  before bed.  not sure yet when i'll stop but i know i'll be emotional.

JLS0320

Congrats on making it a year! I hope to make it that far, just thinking about weaning makes me sad, I truly love nursing DS and I know I will be so emotional when it's over.

preg_amy

Thanks for the support.  I posted about this earlier because I was dreading it... and yeah, it was just as bad as I thought it was going to be.

 

But I'm happy that I'm stopping, I really am.  It's time to be done.  DS doesn't want it anymore and I want my body back

It's just unbelievably hard to face the fact that he's getting older and no longer needs me like he used to.

ncbelle

**Hugs**  I know I'm going to be a wreck and it's hopefully months down the road for me - I teared up just reading your post. 

Congrats for making it so far and enjoy the next stage of mamahood ;-)

AngieandTony

ncbelle:

**Hugs**  I know I'm going to be a wreck and it's hopefully months down the road for me - I teared up just reading your post. 

Congrats for making it so far and enjoy the next stage of mamahood ;-)

this.  hugs mama.  

SarahMay77

You are making me cry.  I'm glad you had a great last night.

in my life

Ugh, I cried just reading your post. I hope to make it as long as you have, that is so amazing. I will so miss BFing, I will definitely be emotional about it.