I had my D&C this morning, and since I woke up crying in recovery, they gave me some kind of good chemical assistance to get me through the day. They used the Twilight Sleep as opposed to full general, so waking up was physically really easy and they got me out of there quickly, which I really appreciated.
I've been handling today okay, until right now. This happened last time - it was as I got closer to going to bed that it all started to hit me and the saddness really settled in. It's the prospect of laying there in the dark, thinking, that I dread.
I miss my baby so much. I hate this. That's it. I have nothing really profound to say. I don't freaking believe this happened to us again. I hate this so much.
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I wish words would help, but I still have to say how sorry I am that you're going through this. Many hugs, thoughts and prayers coming your way...
i'm so sorry.
i find night time to be the most difficult as well. i tend to relive my few days in the hospital and our ordeal over and over and over. (
i'll pray for some peace for you tonight and the nights to come.
This... I do the exact same thing. I have been taking ambien, which helped. We are going to start TTC again though, so I am trying to get off of it. I have found I do a lot of reliving those days without the ambien drifting me off to sleep. It is terrible. I hope you can find peace dear. If not, maybe ask your doctor for something to help you sleep. Just know, when you stop taking it.... the problem comes back. Not something I was expecting.
9/13/09-Twin boys born at 23 weeks due to Pprom.
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