I should preface this by saying that I am not actively TTC right now, as I'm currently undergoing chemo for breast cancer, but they don't really have a board called "Can't Conceive (and may never be able to) Because of Cancer" so I figured I'd be safe here.
My younger sister came over w/ BIL and nephew yesterday to celebrate BIL's birthday. She announced that she's pg w/ #2 (and her HCG is through the roof, so doc says twins are a possibility.) I hugged her and told her how happy I was for them and congratulated her (and I honestly was), then continued assembling the appetizer platter I was making. She kept asking several times if I was excited to be an aunt again, and I said yes (I absolutely adore my nephew...he's one of my very favorite people!) The kicker was after she told my mom (who got there late) her comment to us both was that her MIL/FIL had a much more excited reaction to their news.
I was alone in the kitchen and it was like tears just started involuntarily coming. I didn't even recognize that I was bothered by her news until the last comment she made. I finally had to go lock myself in the bathroom, sat on the toilet and just sobbed. I felt absolutely terrible for even feeling that way. Here I am trying to make decisions on whether or not to chop off one or both boobs, and getting monthly Lupron injections in hopes that my ovaries make it out of this mess with a few good eggs left, and my baby sister is upset that I'm not doing somersaults for her. Obviously, my cancer is not her fault. I'm happy for her...really, I am. But I'm also sad for me.
So my question is, how do you ladies cope with that?