Feeling really frustrated, annoyed, sad. (long)

ladipale

My body is being mean, mean mean.

I went off BCP in April 2008 and started charting right away, but at that time it was to avoid. Charted for 13 cycles. Got a good handle on the patterns of my body... 3 days of AF, couple days of dry CM, sticky, then some creamy, few days of watery, one day of EWCM, and ovulation confirmed with rise in temp one or two days later. 12 day LP. 

So, I felt pretty good when in July we started to actively try to get pg that I would know when to time things.

But now my body is really screwing with my brain. The last 3 cycles I've started to spot on about CD10 for 1 or 2 days. Today is CD11 of my 5th cycle TTC and I don't know whats going on. I'm spotting/light bleeding bright red.  I don't think its normal and I plan to contact my health care provider monday or tuesday.

But I'm frustrated that my body waited all this time to start showing screwy cycles... why not be screwy when I wasn't trying?  Is it related to trying? Its so hard to want something and not have complete control over it. All the other goals in my life are so achievable by my efforts, KWIM?

Thanks for listening and for the support.  

StefB28

Aww, I'm sorry you're so frustrated!! Definitely contact your doc about the spotting tomorrow-- once you figure that out, maybe you'll be on the right track.

 Congrats on your half marathon!!!

jsangel

How frustrating.  I hate how our bodies change.  I really hope that things get worked out and you get a BFP very soon!

Purvalicious

I don't usually post over here, but I had almost exactly the same thing happen Totally normal and 100% regular cycles for over a year of TTA, then the first month we start actively trying my body went to hell in a hand basket.  I didn't O for the first three cycles, and just this month I started getting back to somewhat normal.  Its frustrating, to say the least, and I know how you feel.  Hang in there, it'll be our turn soon!

kofmkg

Hang in there, hon!  Every cycle of mine brings some surprise-the newest is a fallback rise.  It's gonna be worth the hassles when you get the BFP!

 Another congrats on the Nike half.  That one's on my list next year.