I am now 31 weeks, and I have officially started to freak out. This is about the time that I started to show signs of pre-e with DS #1. It progressed into severe pre-e and HELLP and DS was delivered at 35 weeks. After a fantastic ultrasound at 29 weeks, I've had a rough 2 weeks. I've been sick as a dog with a head cold and my BPs have been all over the place. My house is a wreck (DH is trying, but he's a man--enough said) and I feel like I'm not spending any "quality" play time with DS (who is 19 months old today) because I just don't have the energy. On a lighter note, my MFM assures me that I'm ok for right now, that any pre-e signs I may be showing are mild and that my goal should still be to make 37 weeks. He did say, however, that he thinks I'll probably have to be delivered at some time because the pre-e will come back....it's just sort of a question of "when."
So now, I just feel like I'm now living on borrowed time. I am terrified and feel like at any moment, things are going to head south and I'm going to end up with another crazy birthing experience and NICU baby. If one more person tells me "not to worry" and that it's "all going to be okay," I'm going to kick their butt! They're not my son's mother, my husband's wife, and they just don't get it.
Anyways, thanks for listening to me complain. You ladies are a great source of encouragement and support and I appreciate all the kind words.