Flameful confession.

sooosie

Sometimes I hate being a mom.  I don't - by any stretch of the imagination - hate my kids, I just hate being a mom sometimes.  All I want to do some days is NOTHING for anyone else.  And when Max still isn't STTN all the time, it makes it feel 100x worse.  And it seems like the nights he does sleep, Ian wakes up for one reason or another.

No, I am not depressed - I swear.  I just feel like once in awhile I want to not worry about anyone but me.

Ok flame away, I won't feel any worse and I sure won't GBCN. 

Lisa102304

Not one tiny flame here.

 

I freaking LOVE my DD, but there are many days when I wish i could sleep in, just sit and read, whatever. I think this is a natural feeling.

MediaBride

NO flames here - I think we all go through that at some point.  It's not that you don't want to be a mom... it's that you want some time for YOU and for even just  a short time to not be responsible for anyone but yourself.

I swear the closest I come to that feeling lately is any opportunity i have to be in the car without the kiddos and I can pop in some great tunes and crank them up and just drive.  Even for 1/2 hour, it is the closest I get to that feeling.  For now... I'll take it.

Hang in there

ilovemygirls

No flames here.  And you are quite in thick of things, I see, by your kids' ages.  Not to mention the lack of sleep thing- that is a killer.  Having two kids was a very hard transition for me.  I'm still working on it, and mine are almost 5 & 2.5!  Now that DD#2 is PT'd and the two girls are playing together better (some days- other days it's WW3), things are getting easier. ((hugs))

camrude

No flames here. I feel the same way sometimes. Love me kids. I would not think twice about stepping in front of a bus for them, but damn, sometimes I just want it to be me. No noise, no making dinner, no thinking about anyone but me, myself and I.

KoriBrett

Zero flames. ?DS didn't STTN until 16m (the day after he got ear tubes). ?I needed down time, sleep time, and me time. ?When I do get a nap, or part of a day to myself, I'm a much better mom. ?

Katesmama

No flames.  I think almost every mom has those moments.  Lord knows I have them. 

MelandJeff

I could have written your post

shiloh17

you just wrote what all of  us feel at some time. when i feel like this, i try to tell myself that they wont be little forever. someday, we will look back and wish that things were that easy, knowing that they are home and safe in their beds. hang in there, and try to get some "you" time....even if its just a peaceful 20 min. shower after they go to bed! 

jorie

You must not love your kids at all then.

 

Kidding:)

 

What does GBCN mean? I've always wondered and can't quite figure it out.

sooosie

shiloh17:

 someday, we will look back and wish that things were that easy, knowing that they are home and safe in their beds.

Ok this one made me cry!  You are so right, and it puts things into perspective.  I get sad just thinking of them growing up.

Thanks, girls.  I think I'm just having a hard time adjusting (STILL).  Plus DH has been gone since Friday morning, not that that's a long time compared to some ladies but it's been a challenge.

(Hugs) to you all.

co18co

Sounds about right.  DH and DS are going to be across the country for a week at the end of the month of October (and over Halloween) and I don't even care that he is not going to trick or treat, or dress up, or anything.

 

I've been "on" so much for the past few months, while juggling so many other things that life has thrown at me...well, I am just trying to figure out what non-mom costume I'll wear, and what party, in what city I am going to be in...and I have ZERO guilt about it!

sooosie

jorie:

You must not love your kids at all then.

 

Kidding:)

 

What does GBCN mean? I've always wondered and can't quite figure it out.

Ha!  You made me giggle there.  GBCN = goodbye cruel nest.  When people leave suddenly because of drama or Lord knows what else.

jorie

sooosie:

jorie:

You must not love your kids at all then.

 

Kidding:)

 

What does GBCN mean? I've always wondered and can't quite figure it out.

Ha!  You made me giggle there.  GBCN = goodbye cruel nest.  When people leave suddenly because of drama or Lord knows what else.

Ah, thanks for decoding for me:)

CubbyMama

Ditto the others.  I told DH that all I want in the world right now (that I don't already have) is for a babysitting fairy to show up at our house at 7am, get up with the girls, and keep them quiet-yet-entertained until noon so DH and I could sleep in together.  My grandma wants me to let both girls spend the night at her house, but neither of them has ever spent the night away from us, and I'd just worry that K would miss us and be crying, and my grandma wouldn't want to call us at 2am to come and get her.  That's the thing with having kids, which my mom always tried to explain to me: once you have them, you can never, ever stop worrying or thinking about them.  It's such a huge responsibility that you're bound to be overwhelmed by it sometimes!

After seeing last week's "Biggest Loser" and hearing about that contestant whose 5 year old, 2 week old, and husband were killed in a car accident a few years ago, though, I can't stop thinking about it, and it makes me a lot happier about getting up every couple of hours all night and being tired all day.  Like you said: perspective. 

Hang tough, lady!

pincushions

No flames here either.

I just want to be "off" for more than just a Sat. or Sunday afternoon.

Hopefully Emilia starts MDO soon because 7 hours 2x a week with no kids is really going to be soooooooooo helpful.

GrowingFamily

I have never hated being a mom, persay, but have hated the every day routine that comes along with it sometimes!  This morning, for example...different day, same crap!  Our 10 1/2 month old has been waking 2-3 times a night lately, not to eat, but just to fuss, and that is making my patience level dwindle, as well.  It's been almost 11 months since I had a full night's sleep!

Hang in there!

Ashley&Bryan

UGH!!!!!!!  Thank you for this post!! I feel the exact same way today!!!!!!!  I'm freaking losing my mind!!!!!  You're not alone.  I think if I had a full day of ME time, I'd feel alot better.