I am so burnt out on work. I'm tired of the stress and worrying. I hate that there is never a stopping point and there is ALWAYS more that I need to do/could do. I feel guilty every day when I leave work because I feel like I should do more before I go. Then I feel guilty because I lose out on time with DD due to work. I am physically at work 9-10 hours a day. Often bringing stuff home (I teach). I am exhausted physically and mentally. Not to mention my lunch is a joke. We eat with the kids and I might get 10 minutes to shove food down. Forget bringing something you need to microwave-there isn't enough time!
This sounds terrible but I am burnt out on my family. I love DD and she is such a blessing. The whole being 2 and throwing fits at EVERYTHING is on my last nerve. I'm tired of DH not doing much. He helps a lot sometimes but it is frustrating when I come home from work and he has left me the dishes/cleaning/etc. He only works 6 hours or so a day and he has 2 1/2 hours a day where DD is in daycare and he is home alone. Then there are all the issues my parents, brother, and other relatives have. I have so much of my own stress that I am barely hanging on when I have to deal with theirs too.
I'm tired of worrying about my marriage. I hate second guessing things. I am tired of worrying about whether or not we should really be trying to have a baby right now. I am pissed at how broken out my face is from stopping BCP.
I would love to be able to work my damn phone without having to rely on DH. I have no time to sit and figure it out (got a new one Sunday).
I guess I am just at the end of my rope and I don't know how to fix anything. I worry all the time and it has finally gotten to me. Sorry for all the complaining but I needed to get this all out.
Re: I don't think I can do this anymore.
when I get like this I seriously just have to pray...I say Lord I can't friggin take this anymore so You deal with it, just take the stress off my shoulders....and I promise things always eventually look up:)
Sometimes I also feel better when I hear someone elses stress then I feel better about handling my own...
Here's mine: my 16 month old had surgery today, got a fever as a result, stopped breathing during surgery cause he threw up but luckily got a breathing tube & came through, his penis looked swollen, dr said take off his bandage did this all the while he screamed & yanked on it (his stitches). My 4 year old told me he didn't miss me & dh thinks I'm over reacting cause now my ds has a fever.....life. God help us!