Yesterday was one one of the hardest days of my life ... waiting for the final results to come back and confirm my second m/c. As my d/h and I were sitting in the waiting room of course we were surrounded by lots of pregnant women. If that was not difficult enough one woman walked in for her follow up appointment and brought her beautiful one week old baby boy with her. And as she was talking to the receptionist she said "meet Aiden". My heart sunk, that is the name that my d/h and I picked out if we were having a little boy. I wanted to run out of the office but just sat there quietly and smiled.
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I know what you mean, I m/c on Sunday and just now I had a super young couple in my office at work that has a beautiful baby boy, while they are living off of welfare and their parents and argueing the whole time in my office. It's the hardest thing!!!
I'm sorry kjpam, I feel your pain...
thank you all for you warm thoughts. It really did hit me so hard. AND to top it off the waiting room was packed. There were at least 20 patients ( many with children ) waiting to see one of the two doctors. I really just wanted to curl up into a ball and hide. Its funny with my first miscarriage in April I was heart broken as well but I believed that we would get pregnant again and that would be our sticky baby. Now I feel in some ways that hope has been shattered. The next time I get pregnant ( god willing ) I will be so on edge the whole pregnancy, waiting for something horrible to happen. I feel like I have been robbed of one of the joys of being pregnant ... naivete ... just believing everything will be perfect. Does that make sense ? :-(