It hit me today that I would be due in 2.5 months with DC#2 and it freaked me out. After a weekend with a very sick and whiny DS, it scared me that I should be bringing another baby into the mix so soon. I don't know how I would have handled 2 kids under 17 months apart and it for some reason felt like getting pregnant now and having them closer to 2 years apart just seems "right".
I have been feeling incredibly awful and guilty about this all day.
I need to return a phonecall from my best friend from college...but I'm avoiding her because I think she's calling to tell me she's pregnant again. That's the only time we talk, is when there's something big happening.
Not that I wouldn't be happy for her, but we all know the pain it stirs up.
On another note, I need to take a shower and get going, but instead I'm still in my PJ's watching reruns of 'Friends' and considering having ice-cream for lunch!
I can be really confrontational on small matters, but when it's important, I always get nervous and end up chickening out. I can't do that this time. But I might wait until I eat this big cookie and read some more tabloids online.
Re: *~Dish It Up Tuesday*~ Confessions!
It hit me today that I would be due in 2.5 months with DC#2 and it freaked me out. After a weekend with a very sick and whiny DS, it scared me that I should be bringing another baby into the mix so soon. I don't know how I would have handled 2 kids under 17 months apart and it for some reason felt like getting pregnant now and having them closer to 2 years apart just seems "right".
I have been feeling incredibly awful and guilty about this all day.
Im thinking about putting a note on my office front door and say there was a family emergency and just go home and watch tv all day....
Its bad but I dont have any patients to see today....
I always thought I would get pg, have my babies, and that was it. Easy.
If I'm not pg right now I will have to admit that I'm having trouble making a baby and that is tearing me apart.
::fingers and toes crossed for thursday::
i am so hungry i could eat a horse.
i want a baby.
I am just frustrated and moody. I just want to be preg, have my healthy 9 month and be on maternity leave staying home and holding my baby.
I test on Friday but it still hard because I want a BFP so bad
I need to return a phonecall from my best friend from college...but I'm avoiding her because I think she's calling to tell me she's pregnant again. That's the only time we talk, is when there's something big happening.
Not that I wouldn't be happy for her, but we all know the pain it stirs up.
On another note, I need to take a shower and get going, but instead I'm still in my PJ's watching reruns of 'Friends' and considering having ice-cream for lunch!
I'm really bitter and sad today and I feel guilty about it.
I really hope I get to go to Dubai, it's the only thing I have to look forward to right now.
Wishing I had someone to do all this school work for me... 1st day and I get slammed =(
I slept in way....... to long today....way....to long.... but it felt good!!
I just bought 6 of these and want to eat them all, they're for DD's birthday but I don't want to share.