I saw your post below and wanted to say I'm sorry. I've been going through a very tragic loss the last 10 days myself, my perfectly healthy fitness nut 42 year old brother died very suddenly on August 8th. Like you I am completely devastated and have no idea how to deal with such a loss, he was my hero. I still can't believe he's gone. Everyone is worried about me and baby dealing with this kind of shock and stress as well, but thankfully baby is moving around like crazy in there to let me know he's okay. I lost 7 pounds in the last week, which worries me a little bit, but hoping his movement is proof that he's doing okay in there. Anyway, big huge hugs to you - I am right there with you grieving a major loss and it's just not fair that we have to go through this when we're pg.