I am supposed to go to the beach with my friend and her 2 kids later today. It is overcast and might rain. I'm actually happy that I might not have to go. I have been so antisocial lately and I feel bad really bad about it (largely for DS's sake, but also because I've barely seen friends lately).
Lastnight I went to the attic and got out what would've been Emmahs baby clothes. DH said I had a dazed look on my face when I was looking over them. It hurts, a lot. To think I was that far a long and lost her, it shattered me into pieces and I can't seem to glue them all back together.
I'm still craving cake. With a glass of milk.
I dreamt lastnight that I POAS with a BFP. WTF? Don't start that ish with me again. I saw how well that played off.
I'm already stroking out over the new job my dh may/may not have. I want the stabililty and regular hours (dh usually works on call, which sucks), but I'm already stressing over insurance and having to wait to ttc until Dec-Jan if we don't get KU this cycle! Ugghhhh.....the anxiety!! I want, I don't want......
I just reached out to someone on CL who has to re-home her 12 w/o beagle by this weekend because it turns out her son is allergic. I offered to foster the dog until a home is found...without telling H!
I'm hungover. really. I over indulged in wine last night without even realizing it (I'm usually really good at just having a glass or two - but we were out with friends and . . . . )and I'm hurting this morning! ugh.
based on the above I've already thrown my diet out the window and will go get a grilled cheese and fries for lunch. comfort food and grease is what I need.
m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks).
and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers).
IUI#1 and #2: BFNs
Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie.
Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
I went to Target on my way home from work yesterday to pick up one thing. I walked past the baby stuff and got upset. $150 later I drive home. I haven't told DH about my purchases yet...
TTCAL buddy to LMichelleG - Praying for a miracle
PgALbuddy to CanonMom & BriAZ - Congrats on your beautiful little girls
Labor Buddy to Luvsbunny
Even though DH and I missed FWP week because of us both being in different parts of the country, I'm still having phantom symptoms. It's not even possible that I'm pg but I guess I can still have hope.
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I went to Target on my way home from work yesterday to pick up one thing. I walked past the baby stuff and got upset. $150 later I drive home. I haven't told DH about my purchases yet...
Target solves all my problems for a minute, too. Especially the accessories. My confession: I bought knee-high boots I may never wear, but they are sooooo cool I had to have them anyway.
Re: ~*Wednesday Confessions*~
Natural miscarriage - April 2009 ~ We love you, 'Blueberry'
Lydia, born July 12, 2010
Labor buddy to Kelly0615
Lastnight I went to the attic and got out what would've been Emmahs baby clothes. DH said I had a dazed look on my face when I was looking over them. It hurts, a lot. To think I was that far a long and lost her, it shattered me into pieces and I can't seem to glue them all back together.
I'm still craving cake. With a glass of milk.
I dreamt lastnight that I POAS with a BFP. WTF? Don't start that ish with me again. I saw how well that played off.
Yep. I'm still in a bad mood from yesterday.
I'm hungover. really. I over indulged in wine last night without even realizing it (I'm usually really good at just having a glass or two - but we were out with friends and . . . . )and I'm hurting this morning! ugh.
based on the above I've already thrown my diet out the window and will go get a grilled cheese and fries for lunch. comfort food and grease is what I need.
TTCAL buddy to LMichelleG - Praying for a miracle
PgALbuddy to CanonMom & BriAZ - Congrats on your beautiful little girls Labor Buddy to Luvsbunny
Target solves all my problems for a minute, too. Especially the accessories. My confession: I bought knee-high boots I may never wear, but they are sooooo cool I had to have them anyway.