My SIL just had a beautiful baby girl, while I am happy for them I can't help but cry. It physically makes me hurt and feel sick. I have nothing against them, it just reminds me of were DH and should have been. I feel horrible for DH. He left work to go home because it bothered him so much. This is so hard!
Re: My heart hurts today
APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
I am sorry for your pain. Congrats on being an aunt.
I know how painful that can be. On a similar note, my sister's "oopsie" baby (with the guy who is now her ex-bf) was born on my EDD and it was very painful. Part of it is: why them, why not us? And another part is: wouldn't it be great that the cousins would have been so close in age? There are so many reasons that this sucks so bad. Feel free to cry when you need to. And you always have us here if you need to talk/vent/whatever.