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Ana_23

Here i am i was 20weeks when i had my miscarriage and i am so torn apart i cant do anything with myself its been a month in a half and i haven't went to work which they understand what im going through i dont want to get reed of any of the things i bought for my first baby boy [Savion tyler Gatson] i just wish i did not have to still push him out i dont know what to do but sooner or later im going to have to stop looking at soap operas and do something with myself i just wish he was here i have alot of wishes and hopes now that i thought i would never have can anyone help me stop beating myself up about this tragedy PLEASE?

Tapsalteerie

Is there anything that you can do with your time that might help get your mind off of the situation?  Maybe start up a hobby?

I lost my little girl at 20 weeks and it was devastating.  I didn't want to get out of bed for the first week.  But, later on, I found that when I kept myself busy, it helped prevent my mind from wandering to everything that had just happened.

I started exercising (which really relieves a lot of tension) and have set a target weight for myself before we start TTC again.  DH and I began working on several projects around the house that we were originally putting off until the baby was born.  My friend is trying to get me back into cross stitching.  All of these things have been extremely therapeutic and have sped up time for me.

smileychic10986

I am so sorry for your loss.  It has to be heart breaking to lose your son when you are half way to being able to meet him!  It really is so sad to have to go through.  I want you to know, you are not alone in this.  Some of the other ladies on this board have had late losses, you are not the only one.  It is so hard to go through.  Like pp said, maybe try and find something to do to take up your time.  Get back into the swing of your life, and it may help you begin to heal.  I am so sorry for your loss, but we welcome you here on this board if you ever need to talk/vent or anything else.  Good luck to you.

3ltlones

The feelings that you are having are completely normal.  You will go through sadness, anger and guilt.  I felt the guilt for a very long time, but you have to know that there is nothing you did wrong or could have done any differently.  I'm sure that your little Savion was a gorgeous little boy.  I have found that blogging is very helpful to me, maybe that or journaling would be helpful to you.  I would suggest talking with your OB as well, what you are going through could be depression, and there are alot of things that can help you to make it through.  I'm so very sorry for your loss.