NBR: completely craptastic day

sdkrlm

I will no longer be online during the day.

I had my performance review today and although my actual work performance was great, my mgr mentioned making sure I am not online at all.  (my internet time has not affected my work at all but they are cracking down now)

So here's the crappy part of my day. 

I have been with mycompany for 6 years. I started on a rotation program and my first rotation was great.  I learned a lot, got a lot of opportunities, etc.  My 2nd rotation was on a large program and the girl who I rotated with told the group I was going into that I only worked independently and didn't tellanyone what I was doing, and I would change everything.  (WHAT??)  

SO that followed me and it has preceeded me everywhere I went.  My current manager basically told me that there is a misconception around our company that I am difficult to work with.  She told me that she KNOWS I am capable of anything and that the people I have worked with don't have any complaints but I need to work on the misconception that I am. 

And...she realized that I have had really shittty managers since leaving my first rotation.  And this is absolutely true.  

After my review I went and bawled my eyes out.  Not only was I upset that I found out that no one really likes me but also that FINALLY someone recognized the unfair treatment I have had.  I know I had told her some of what was going on before I officially worked for her, she was able to see it on paper by looking at my past performance.  

I appreciate the honest feed back she gave me.  It really helped but man, what a friggin' day..

 

And - to top it off... My milk supply STILL officially sucks.  I don't know what I am going to do.  This morning- I usually get like 4-7 ounces and today I barely got 2!!! WTF??  

Runaway Bride!

((BIG HUGS)) It really sucks that other people's misconceptions have become your problem.

I hope things get better!

ECUTeacher

I am sorry your day sucked!

Kaybee44

I am sorry your day was so bad. It is good to know the things you need to change, though.

Are you thinking that this misconception is back of the reason you didn't get that other job in the company that you applied for?

sdkrlm

Kaybee44:

I am sorry your day was so bad. It is good to know the things you need to change, though.

Are you thinking that this misconception is back of the reason you didn't get that other job in the company that you applied for?

it explains a lot about everything...but it doesn't JUSTIFY it.  The interesting thing is that if you talk to people I work with, they all love me... just so wrong

Kaybee44

Oh it def. doesn't justify it. I don't understand why that woman thought to start something like that. I mean, your managers have said you are an excellent worker. I got a reputation for being a tattletale at my old job. Only I wasn't. I complained to my supervisor about one of my front desk companions because she was basically handing all of her work off to me even though I was swamped. I was somewhat new at the time and she got me thinking that I was supposed to do things that were her job. Well, that plus she kept leaving her desk to go to the kitchen and was then gone for like 15 minutes. Turns out only like 2 people really believed her story about me being a tattle.

Was the hard to work with thing brought up to you in past reviews?

cherryblossom25

Man that sucks!! I hope things get better at work. That's so unfair.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time with your supply. Maybe AF is on the way? Doesn't that affect supply? Or maybe Avery is just getting more milk when she's nursing so there's not as much left when you pump? I don't know. I hope it gets better though, I know it's really stressful to be concerned about your supply.

(((hugs))) Hope tomorrow is better

AngelsAmid

*huge hugs*

sdkrlm

Kaybee44:

Oh it def. doesn't justify it. I don't understand why that woman thought to start something like that. I mean, your managers have said you are an excellent worker. I got a reputation for being a tattletale at my old job. Only I wasn't. I complained to my supervisor about one of my front desk companions because she was basically handing all of her work off to me even though I was swamped. I was somewhat new at the time and she got me thinking that I was supposed to do things that were her job. Well, that plus she kept leaving her desk to go to the kitchen and was then gone for like 15 minutes. Turns out only like 2 people really believed her story about me being a tattle.

Was the hard to work with thing brought up to you in past reviews?

Not at all.  The only thing I ever heard was from the manager I had before my previous mgr and that is a story for another time.  He was TERRIBLE and had a little peon employee that would fill his head with all sorts of stuff.  It was awful.  There was an ethics complaint filed against him (not from me) and he ended up retiring.

sdkrlm

Kaybee44:

Oh it def. doesn't justify it. I don't understand why that woman thought to start something like that. I mean, your managers have said you are an excellent worker. I got a reputation for being a tattletale at my old job. Only I wasn't. I complained to my supervisor about one of my front desk companions because she was basically handing all of her work off to me even though I was swamped. I was somewhat new at the time and she got me thinking that I was supposed to do things that were her job. Well, that plus she kept leaving her desk to go to the kitchen and was then gone for like 15 minutes. Turns out only like 2 people really believed her story about me being a tattle.

Was the hard to work with thing brought up to you in past reviews?

Not at all.  The only thing I ever heard was from the manager I had before my previous mgr and that is a story for another time.  He was TERRIBLE and had a little peon employee that would fill his head with all sorts of stuff.  It was awful.  There was an ethics complaint filed against him (not from me) and he ended up retiring.

Snugs99

Sorry you had a rough day.