Parenting after a Loss

Nightmare

So I woke up at 3AM after having a horrible nightmare that after Landon was born he died. It was awful! In my dream I was all alone (no dh) and people were saying awful things just like it was a m/c and all the feelings I felt during my m/c came back in the dream except 100x worse. Next thing I know I am in L&D watching a women give birth to sextuplets and I refused to hold any of them...I think thats when I woke up. I cried and wanted in the worst way tp just snuggle w/ my little guy!!

I know why I had the dream...I was over at a friend's house and her mom had 7 m/c's and we were discussing them and the comments people made. I don't think dh was in it because I felt very alone, like he never understood my feelings during it all. And the sextuplets...what can I say other than I watched Jon & Kate plus 8 yesterday...

If you read this thank you! I needed to tell someone.

~Jess & Mike May 12, 2007
12.6.07 CP at 5w
5.21.08 BO discovered at 7w, D&E at 8w3d
8.31.08 CP at 4w5d
BFP Sept 25, 2008 bfp buddy lkstor Landon born June 6, 2009
3.25.11 missed m/c discovered at 9w6d, D&E at 10w2d
4.28.11 MTHFR a1298c homozygous discovered
4.2011 Began NaProTechnology
10.12.11 Diagnosed with Type III Luteal Phase Defect
10.2011 Starting hcg injections on 5, 7 & 9 dpo
BFP 12.7.11 - EDD 8.14.12 - IT'S A BOY! Fruit Baby
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