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Parenting after a Loss
MayBride2B2007
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*monday confessions*
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Re: *monday confessions*
My goal to bf is a year but lately I'm thinking I may not make it that far. Now I'm thinking I may go 6-9 months.
I really want another child but after Taylor not taking bottles the past few days I have been so stressed and want to wait at least over a year for the second.
* I'm pissy because a guy I dated a couple times (a month or so ago) went off on me tonight because I told him he couldn't come over and that if he wanted to see me again, he needed to take me out. I'm sorry, buying me coffee does not get you sex! Where does he get off telling me it's my fault and that he's "trying"!?! No, trying would be buying me dinner.?
* I'm going to visit my students tomorrow on my day off. I'd rather sit around and do nothing. Going to go in early so that I can get some afternoon sun (while doing homework of course). ?
* I have a first date tomorrow night. I'm so not excited and just going because I should. At least I'll be getting a margarita out of it. ?
*i think i'm becoming MORE clumsy then i was before. today i COMPLETELY walked into the doorway to the kithcen & hit my foot on the doorway & fridge. we've lived here for 5 years. the doorway has not moved. surprised i didn't whack my head.
*everytime i look at ds, i am amazed at how much i can love this little person that a year ago was not even a twinkle in our eyes.
*sometimes i think about all the terrible things that could happen to ds and how i wouldn't be able to protect him & it scares the crap out of me. (eg: tripping while carrying him, dropping something on him - and that's not even touching when he's older)
*our dog gets SO little attention now. i feel like a HORRIBLE doggie mommy. so much guilt. i think he thinks i hate him or something. i love him SO much though. his birthday is saturday. we're gonna throw him a party. cake and all.
I was so excited that I ran/walked tonight, I was telling DH how I had a hard time with one of the litte hills in our development when I was running. He basically chastised me, and then back peddeled and apologized when he saw I was upset. But now it's pretty much ruined my night.
Madison was so fussy this afternoon I cried. She's never like that.
I'm scared of her 2 month appointment on Thursday. I'm afraid the pedi isn't going to be happy that she is barely 10 pounds. She has plenty of wet/dirty diapers and is content. But i had to reschedule and the only dr. we could see if the one who tried to force me to supplement with formula when Madison was a week old.
* AF is officially late and i don't know whether to be pissed or worried.
* i hate my body but am too lazy to do anything about it. i have no time to exercise and no motivation to find the time.
* i'm tired of reflux. i want my baby to stop being in pain.
* i really want to BF for a year, but am trying to prepare myself that we may have to switch to formula in a couple of weeks if hadley's next test comes back still positive for the allergy. part of me wants to BF her non-stop the next 12 days just in case i have to quit cold turkey.
* i'm thinking of taking a week off even though mr. soup has no vacation time. i need a break from work and more time to focus on my girl.
I'm very upset tonight because my dad is trying so hard to make things stable and nothing is working out for him. He got divorced then lost his job then lost his house then moved 700 miles away and then got a new job, laid off, moved back, got a job but as a school bus driver so he's out of work again and just had to move out of where he was living because sh!tty friends. Nothing is stable for him and he's not an alcoholic or anything, it's not like he's trying to have things screwed up...they just are, so much, and my heart just breaks everytime. I have been crying on and off for a hour because he doesn't have anywhere to live. He doesn't want to stay with us because we don't have room but we offered
He came up with a little money and gave a guy a deposit on a room. I just want something to work out for him and it's just so very hard watching him struggle so much.
* just added the alcoholic part bc we have some family members that are actually better off than my dad and are just dead drunk all the time, and i have a little bitterness towards them. they don't try and get by and he's trying so hard and not pissing his money away on booze. ok sorry i'm done. sorry. ughh.
I'm thinking you two should take a drive up to the lake with me for a few days when you take that week off
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I felt like a horrible mother last night. I wanted to put Eve in her crib and let her cry.. I was ANGRY at her for not wanting to nurse.. Thank god DH got up with me too cuz I just couldn't take it.
It REALLY made my day that my post this morning got so many responses.. but then I was bummed cuz my follow up post didn't.
I am still sad for my Friend's sister who had the m/c..I want to facebook message her but I don't want her to think we were all talking about her..plus I don't know the circumstances.. My losses were early so sometimes i feel like if I tell someone that I can relate and then they ended up having a late loss I will feel like an a$$
Skats TV post made me feel kind of bad.. because my DD DOES watch a lot of TV..but I am still letting her watch TV while i eat my dinner as we speak.
m/c 1/2/08 and 3/12/08
Eve Amelia- Born 2/24/09. 6lb 9.9oz
Natalie Ruth - Born 6/13/11 7lb 6.6oz
((hugs))?
* I hate hearing "you're a new mother" when I have a feeling or concern about meredith
* It made me giggle when gmil's cousins said they were gonna call her to make her jealous that they got to hang out with M and she didn't.
* Gmil always makes a face & tries to find fault with our cats in respect to M. She doesn't like cats (and that's fine). So she tries to pick & pick until she finds something she can say "aha! see? you should get rid of them".
I still need to pump 2 more ounces tonight. This officially sucks.
We are dog sitting and the dog steals stuff. I'm not used to this. I like my dog who leaves everything where it belongs
I can't wait to get my stuff I ordered this weekend thanks to NVU - I think DH will like it
I need to go to bed early but seeing as though I still don't have all my stuff together, that may not happen
I really miss having money. I liked buying myself and Annie things just because I felt like it.
I love staying home more than I miss having money.
I gave my sister several maternity outfits, doppler, pg book, and other things. Every time she tells me that she has used one of my old things I want to scream, "DON"T TOUCH THEM! THEY WERE FOR ME AND ANNIE!" Then I feel really selfish and even more insane because it was my decision to lend them to her. It bothers me that she will probably never understand how hard it was for me to let her borrow her those things.
I am addicted to Secret Life.
* I'm not a fan of pumping. It still hurts when I start. And I feel like people wonder why I'm in an office on another floor.
* I want to take a day off, just to have by myself but that won't work since DH works from home.
* I need to go to the gym. Walking is all good but I'm paying for a membership that I don't use.
* I wish I could sleep in but I never have been able to and it's worse now. I celebrate everything I don't see 5am.
Mine came a week earlier than they said it would! (I could make a super dirty comment to follow that last sentence, but I'll let you fill in the blanks!)?
*even though it took A LOT for me to start the weaning process, now that I am in the middle of it... I can honestly say it's getting easier. Jacob is doing really well on formula, not spitting up as much and literally jump for joy when he sees me making his bottles.
*I don't read TV exposure posts. My tv is always on . I don't intentionally plop Jakie in front of the TV, but he is exposed to it. just add it to another thing I'll screw him up for
*I went out to lunch today with Cyndi (jin'swifey) and all I thought about afterwards was how thankful I am for the nest for letting me meet such wonderful girls and forming IRL relationships.
*My dh agreed to a 2011 baby! He knows that my plan is to have a baby as early as February. woohoo. That'll put Jacob at a little over 2 years at the earliest. I think I am totally great with this decision.
more venting.
I am so tired of my DH not having a clue about so many things for example... where stuff goes, when the kids eat, what they should eat, when is the appropriate time to take out the trash etc etc. I could go on and on but I'm sure watching paint dry would be more interesting. Just needed to get that out.
I ordered 1 of Gabe's birthday presents online and then we picked out one last week at TRU that we had a coupon for... he went and bought 3 or 4 more things today and then was going to wrap them too. I felt so sad because I didn't get to do any of the fun shopping and instead I get all the stress from planning the party and the part he was supposed to do I ended up having to do it anyways. So... I sold SIX bows this weekend and tomorrow I'm taking my OWN money and buying my son a birthday present. I'm also not letting DH wrap anything because 1. he's a man 2. he's left handed and we only have right handed scissors and there is no way I'm letting him sabotage the presents.
I hate having my period, if you couldn't tell from all this biotching I'm doing.
DH gave up again... I think he rather watch TV.
Iwant a better paying job.
I ate too much jubk food...my belly never fully went away,but I think it's getting worse.
Ditto..Can't wait to do it again..i wish i would have toalked to my Dad before our lunch..lol
~I am terribly disappointed in my parents..it totally sucks...
~i guess i should be excited to have my first "real" period in almost a year but my face has returned to a teenage stage...Plus, i am not allowed to wear tampons (sorry TMI) b/c i have to keep track of how much i bleed
~some days i have to drive by my the office of my old RE..sometimes it takes all the strength i have NOT to go in and punch him in the nuts (FYI i would never REALLY do this but it feels good to day dream about it)
~some days i have to drive by my the office of my old RE..sometimes it takes all the strength i have NOT to go in and punch him in the nuts (FYI i would never REALLY do this but it feels good to day dream about it)
I bet there are some girls on here who will volunteer to do it for you. They also will wear pointy shoes for knee kicking! I am not that violent LOL! (hugs) for having to deal with a crappy dr.
* I feel so out of touch w/this board anymore. I just don't have time to keep up.
* DH came home w/great news today... he got a substantial bonus at work! I feel guilty even typing that b/c I know how many people are struggling these days, but I will burst if I don't share the news w/someone.
* I am sad about being away from Lewie and Evie for three days. I know it's for a good cause, but I hate not being with them.
*I am sad that my son knows when something is going on and asks me if I am feeling better.
*I did get a good laugh from Lewie offering to kiss where I got my shot. Such a sweet boy.
Mama to Lewis Elijah-11/18/05
and Evangeline Mae - 12/06/07
and two angels 3/17/07 at 5w and 12/16/08 - 11w partial molar pregnancy with bonus chemo
Best Kind to Have-blog
I was sooo going to say this
Stick around and we'll bring out our pointy shoes!
* I'm sick of feeling like DH thinks I'm doing something wrong with E... I think I'm a good mom to him and make good decisions for him
* I'm really afraid that my supply is starting to tank. Today I only pumped 13 oz and I need 16 oz for E on Wednesday. I'm blessed to have tonight and tomorrow to try and make up for it but wish I could pump the 18oz I used to