totally caught off gaurd yesterday

Clotho!

so one of the girls from the youth group dh and I help run at our church is in the hospital again (long story but she's been in and out of the hospital for the last year) and this is the 1st time due to various circumstances that we've been able to visit her there. She is at the Children's hospital here not the one where I had either of my boys at or the one where they were in the NICU at and her dad prepared us for how much pain she is in right now so I thought I'd be ok. Well once we got there I was completely hit by the smell of the place the same nauseating smell of the NICU it made me want to vomit and cry all at the same time. I flashed back to the very 1st time dh rolled me down to the NICU to see ds#1 when I was so sick from all the meds they had me on and so overwhelmed by the whole situation.It just came so out of left field that I had trouble holding it together for our visit there I just wanted to collapse into a puddle and cry. even today I'm still feeling a bit sad about it all possible just still a bit hormonal though. just wanted to get that off my chest ad tell it to people who know what it feels like.

kamcfarlane

i'm sorry. i had the same thing happen when i went to the hospital to get an ultrasound for my gallbladder. i had to get a wristband and because it was the same "brand" of hospital, it had the same sticker on it as the one i had when i delivered DS and the same stickers i used to mark his BM in the NICU. started tearing up right there in radiology. i'm sure they thought i was insane.

i hope you're feeling better soon!!!

TriciaJoy

PTSD blows.

my friend in labor today got me this afternoon.. I just could *FEEL* how anxious she must be right now.. took me back to a place I prefer not to revisit.

 

*KatieH*

I as do many of know and feel as you do. It stinks, and one day I hope we all can erase the bad and replace with all good ?