Today is exactly 1 month since I lost my boys

vkbaby09

I am hurting pretty badly right now.  One month seems like a long time, but it feels like it could have been yesterday.  Time's flown.  I still cry everyday, though some days have been better than others.  I've been able to enjoy some things and laugh too.  I think I am definitely a changed person, that I can never be the same.  I can never take anything for granted.  No matter what I plan for and what steps I take to make something turn out well, something bad can happen...or something out of my control can change them. 

I guess I just miss my boys, Ian and Colin.  I miss having them inside me.  I miss holding them and kissing them and talking to them and hearing them coo and cry.  I miss all the dreams we had for them and seeing them follow their own dreams.  I wish things were different...

Thank you, ladies.  You really have kept me going through this month.  Your strength inspires me.  Your words comfort me.  Your stories and babies make me feel like I and my babies are not alone.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.    

heidilleah

awww V I am so sorry, no one deserves to go through this.  You are a strong and amazing woman and you will get through this.  I like to believe your boys are now together watching over you, the way you watched over and loved them while they were with you.   I am definately here for you and any time you want to talk please dont hesitate. 

Kel&Jay

I'm so so sorry.  Your post has me crying for you, Ian and Colin. 

::Sending a giant hug to you::

Addicted2thenot

((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry. 

Jojojojo

Huge, Huge ((((((HUGS)))))

BeckyS1211

V, you and Ian and Colin are not alone!  I'm glad to hear that you have been able to laugh and smile a little bit, that is huge.  For the longest time I felt guilty any time I wasn't comletely depressed and not thinking about Noah.  It's ok, that's what is supposed to happen.  Your life can go on and you can enjoy it and still miss your little men at the same time.  The last thing they would want is for their mommy to be depressed for the rest of her life.  They love you and are looking out for you.  Wishing you the best and sending big huge hugs your way...

someflower6

i'm so sorry for all you've been through. but i'm so glad you could find some peace and comfort here. i hope you know that despite all the darkness you have been through, you are an inspiration to so many women.