Just a little down today...

franciscaz

I haven't posted on this board what has been going on (Cupcake Update...  ) b/c it all happened soooo fast.  I've been in the hospital since Tuesday and will stay here probably (unless Rachel decides to stop playing in the birth canal) until 32 wks... or more.

Can I whine for a moment?  This is so hard... I can't really sit up.  Wash my hair.  Or even go to the bathroom.  The magnesium hurts so much amd makes me alll loopy.  I just am trying to be optimistic but it is hard.  The worse is my son, he freaks out seeing me here.  It hurts so much.  I feel like I let my kids down... my cupcakes and my son

If you have been in my shoes how do you get through the day?  How do you stay positive?  I'm dying here.  I could use help.

Holanchi

No advice here, I just got put on bedrest at 19 weeks for the remainder of the pregnancy.  Just wanted to send hugs and positive vibes your way.  Hang in there!

Temp159135562506975

I'm so sorry you are going through all that. It's hard - and even worse with a toddler - my heart breaks for you b/c I know how hard it would have been for me with griffin.

you are a great mom- not letting anyone down! you are diong something super hard all for your babies!!  You can do it- they'll be here soon and it will be worth it.

Mag sucks- i was on it with DS1 - ugh.... prayers for you!

meldoo2002

Hang in there.  I can't imagine what you are going through.  At 30w I was going to be put on hospital bedrest for 6 weeks, but my water broke the 1st night I was in the hospital and they were unable to stop my labor.  I know how you feel about the magnesium.  I counted down the hours til they were able to turn mine of (24 hours after delivery).  I was so sick from it and it made me so loopy I couldn't go see my babies for 39 hours after delivery.  I think you have to just take it hour by hour and know the longer those babies stay in the better off they'll be.  Just think of them.  Read, nest, rest.  I know it's hard and will be hard, but you're doing the best you can for them.

Kim777

I have not been in your shoes, but I just wanted to say you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are doing a great job for all three of your little ones!

crazy4u624

I'm so sorry you have to go through this....I can't imagine how hard it must be, espeically having a toddler. But you are certainly not letting anyone down....you are doing everything you can to keep those cupcakes cooking as long as possible. It will all be worth it once you have those two beautiful babies in your arms Hang in there....you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

jlc071903

I have been there and I know that it is hard and it sucks (well, the emergency BR stuff..I can't imagine not being able to see my other baby)...PLEASE talk to your MFM about maybe some thing to help you get through this. I really wish I would have, it was so sudden and then I was in a way (despite all my visitors, etc) isolated until I returned to work in December. I felt like I had failed my girls and my DH as well.

Our friends and Family were AWESOME during my hospitalization and then my 'freedom' at home while on BR (they did send me home, quite shockingly for awhile, but it was always a question as to whether or not I'd be back there after each appointment). Visitors really helped..I lived for my MFM appointments so that I could see the girls....I talked to them alot, played on the internet, read, shopped online (b/c I couldn't go anywhere), talked on the phone, knitted, watched movies, slept A LOT (wish I could have stored that up for the first couple months)...chanted to myself about how each day was 3 less days in the NICU. I tried to do somet hing each day to 'help' my babies..read a little in a book about babies, sleep habits, etc so taht I was continuing to connect with them in other ways than by being their incubator.  

You can so do this...your cupcakes are worth it and this is NOT your fault.

bumpuser3082773

You are in my prayers.  My daughter has PTL and is on bedrest at home.  She is almost 21 weeks.  She has no other children.  After a while, your son will not remember any of this.  I cannot imagine how hard this must be.  Believe me, you are doing a wonderful job. Brooke's triplets, your cupcakes and my twin grandbabies will be in my daily prayers or I should say, hourly prayers.. 

I am sending HUGS and blessings your way.

Linda, TX Grandma

bumpuser3082773

Holanchi, you will also be added to my prayer list.  Hugs and blessings your way, also.  Linda, TX Grandma

atc282

Sorry you are feeling down...hopefully everyone's posts are bringing your spirts up already! Please know that we are here for all the vents, questions, prayer requests, etc. for you!! I appreciate you keeping us updated and never doubt that you aren't being thought of and prayed for!!

I'm not in your shoes, BUT, a good mantra my mom always said to me (and that I keep in mind) is "treat yourself as you would your own best friend." Since you are haivng a hard time on BR, understandably so, what would YOU do for your best friend if she were in your shoes? I am assuming you'd be giving her lots of support, motivation, and PAMPERING! Allow others to treat you--you deserve it!! Try to keep your thoughts positive by doing the things that make you feel most relaxed and at peace (given your circumstances). Just think, all of these hurdles will be soooo worth it once you get to hold and love your precious cupcakes. Hopefully the time will seem to go by quickly and that you will be able to keep your mind busy and your spirits high while on BR.

Let us know if you need anything! I'd be glad to send a care package (you can PM me) or any cravings you have while on BR! Never doubt what an AWESOME mom you are to your toddler and twins! Hopefully your DS will become more used to seeing mommy on BR with time.

HANG IN THERE!!! Sending you lots of smiles and positive thoughts!!!

franciscaz

Wow you guys are amazing!  Thanks!  It helps, I don't feel so alone...