I know this will sound stupid but it just dawned on me that we really and truly may lose both girls. I think I was in denial about the realities of this screwed up system and truly belived that the right thing always happens.
This case may drag on for a year or longer, per our social worker, and at the end we may be childless, have to give up the children we love. How fair is that? What was I thinking?
I cannot stop crying or feeling like an idiot. Why did I think I could do this?