The closer she gets to turning 1

here4u

the more I cry these days!  I'll be driving and all of sudden I get a NICU flashback and I'm bawling, or in bed about to go to sleep and I think of all the little milestones in the hospital and I start crying again.  UGH,  I hope I'm not a mess at her party next month!  I love my lil munchkin so much!

nasmith882

It is an emotional ride...we love them so so much!!! You will cry at her party but they will be tears of JOY!!! and lots of them...YEAH!!! for happy tears..

KellyMichelle

That is so normal.  I wish the search function worked an you would see that so many of us have said the same thing.  It is a huge milestone and also an emotional time of remembering where you were the year before.

mcdev

I went through exactly the same thing this winter/spring. ?I started getting real emotional around the time that my pregnancy started going downhill. ?It was almost unbearable as the weeks closed in on her birthday. ?I purposely planned her birthday for a couple of weeks after her actual birthdate because I was so afraid I was going to make an ass of myself at a party and just cry hysterically or something. ?Now Keira is 13 months old and looking back I can tell you that the months/weeks leading up to her birthday were much worse than the actual day. ?And after that date passed, it was like a weight lifted from my shoulders. ?I still have my moments, but overall I am feeling much more positive about everything. ?It does get better. ?Hang in there!

RRHsMom

I was exactly the same last month.  I was even at the point a few weeks before his bday where I had decided not to even celebrate it bc I did not think I could handle it and instead was going to do something for his coming home day but changed my mind and am glad I did bc we had a very nice party and he will only turn 1 once!  The flashbacks mostly went away after I was out of the time frame he was in the nicu.  It is completely normal but it does suck.  I just tried to talk about it here or with dh and that helped as well as remembering the mini milestones as those days came and went.  I really kept trying to tell myself "wow that was so scary but look at my sweet boy now!!! Talk about a miracle. "  It helped me to keep refocusing like that but that did take a conscious effort on my part.  GL getting through the next few weeks and months and I promise it gets easier.  Hug your miracle whenever needed bc that helps too

AviatorJJ

i was that way too when R turned one. all these memories came flooding back. his 2nd birthday was much better.

SBMBride406

Marino will be 1 on 7/3 and I've been crying since 6/1.