Having a hard time (another emotional vent)

californiastars

 We have been trying for 18 months total, m/c was 6 months ago. Now that it has hit June, I realize how close it is to my edd (08/08 only 2 more months). 

So I have been trying to keep my mind off of it and today I was doing pretty good, then the girl across the street tells DH and I "Well, there is going to another baby on the street". This hit me like a ton of bricks. Since she said she is due in January then by my calculations they tried for 4 months. 4!

How is that fair? How is it fair that everyone else in the world is having children and seem to do it with ease and it took us a year to get pregnant and only to loose it? How is it fair that I have to book people everyday that are meth addicts, tweakers, flat out crazy and they have 5 kids or have had repeated abortions? I have to watch family visits that have a dad or mom that is not going to be released for months or years and they have the most precious new borns? What makes God think that they are better parents then we would be? 

 I just don't get it and now I am crying. Great 

mlmtgg

big hugs. none of this is fair. none of it.

I work in Family Court and deal every day with the families you describe and it takes everything in my power not to strangle each of them and slap them silly when I hear the atrocious things they do or don't do with their precious children.

I wish I had answers for you. believe me. just know we're here.

ACM1616

I am with you on that one.  A couple of months ago, I said to my sister, "Your husband just looks at you and you're pregnant" one night when I was venting about our TTC troubles... I didn't mean anything by it, other than the fact that it seems to be sooo easy for some people!  DH's best friend and his GF had a baby last September... she got KU about 3 weeks into them dating.  They have since broken up, and are splitting the custody of the baby.  Makes me want to vomit a little bit.

I feel for ya, sistah!

bkjcwedding

It's not fair babe!  And there's no rhyme or reason to some of it either.  T&P that there's another baby on your street very soon. 

(And that is belong to you, and not some 16 year old who forgot to take 1 BCP.)

 

texas77

it is so not fair.  i'm sorry.  i get so mad sometimes because i think am i really asking too much to just get pg.  i mean crackheads and roaches can do it so why can't i?   ugh, great now i'm all upset too.  can we be miserable together???

Mrs.Brink

So sorry you're having a hard time. Sounds like we're in the same line of work. I work for a women's rehab and find some days competely overwhelming. We have this one client right now that has a 3yr old and pg with her 3rd. She m/c also but says it was great since she didn't have to pay for another abortion. We're coming up on 2yrs and 2nd edd. There still isn't a day that goes by where I think about our little one, but, I don't find myself in tears every day like that 1st year. It's not so much easier as it is "dried up". I hope you have some good days coming your way. You deserve it. ((hugs))

waitingforbaby#2

(((hugs)))

~*BREN*~

I'm so sorry and no, it is so not fair. Please hang in there...I know it will happen for you...you will have your little one. ((HUGS))

carasizemore

You're right. It's not fair. It's not fun. It's not easy. But I'm glad that you were able to vent about it and hopefully you feel a little bit better now. We're here for you!  ((hugs!))